yeah, it's you i'm talking about.

anger.

this is not supposed to be my job, because this is not my part of the theatre.

screw you guys!

eleven, soccer team.

'cause the spaces between my fingers

are right where yours fit perfectly'

HAPPY ELEVENTH MONTHS TO US MY DEAREST

IRVAN SETIAWAN!!!

i hope everything happens between us is a gift from God, that we have to face it, no matter what the situations are, the consequences are and the troubles are in our life, let that thing be something that can make us stronger as a couple.

one more month to our anniversary, i hope we can make it through and again, build to last.

'it's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life.'

"ams"

quick updates.

it's such a long time since i didn't made an update. firstly because, blogger was banned in indonesia for, well i don't know exactly how long, but every time i opened it, it can't. i don't know why at first, but this morning i heard the news that blogger was banned because of someone in indonesia made a bad blog. i don't know what it is all about to be exact but, the stupid thing is, this 'someone' that made a bad blog used wordpress not blogger. and why was blogger the one that being banned? how stupid it was. i don't know anything about wordpress because i'm not using it. so, yeah, it was a stupid thing.

so, on the 23rd of november, err...it's monday if i'm not mistaken, i went to jakarta's so called 'china town' located in glodok. it is quite a place, since i've never been there. i went because i had to do my job as the property crew. to search for some props for the theatre. and yes, i'm still on my theatre thingy. i hope you're not bored with that. because i'm not. i get used to it though. :p

the place is quite unique for me, it's a great place to take a picture, but unfortunately i'm not taking any. but i'll go back there i guess. i'm not done with my props yet. still, there's too many things that i need to buy from that place. and the foods seems nice too. and delicious. ugh! i wanna go back and have something to eat there. :)

oh! my mid exam test results are coming out. but it turned out to be not so great. i'm afraid my grades will be dropping down. i'm not gonna let that happen. i'll do my best to have a good score. i promise myself to have at least, one A. or two. and i hope i can do it. well, i must do it anyway. good luck for me. :)

for the last updates, CHRISTMAS IS NEAR!!! and i'm very excited about it. i've done my first christmas' shopping spree. and i'm willing to go to the next. my mom wanna buy a new christmas tree, but she still confused what color should she chose. i'm thinking a little snowy blue will be nice right? or whatever the color is, as long as i have a brand new christmas tree. i can feel the christmas spirit in me. also, on the first christmas' shopping spree, i bought david archuleta's christmas album. and it's so great!!! and it is my current playlist on my car. :)

only a month left before christmas, and i can't wait to celebrate it!!! :)

"ams"

tips to prevent the 'monday blues'.

so, here's what i've got from this month's readers digest. tips on how to prevent your monday blues. you know, everyone seems to hate waking up early in the monday morning. well, i do too. sleeping is the only thing i love the most at a time like this. plus, when it's raining in the morning, oh God, that is for me is what i called PERFECT LIFE! it's hard enough to open up your eyes, but it's even hard for me to face the truth that i'll go to a class on monday morning. it sucks, i know.

but i read this great article from readers digest and maybe i will try it on monday. or even tomorrow morning. oh well, we'll see it then.

BEAT THE SLEEPING HABBIT.

• avoid the weekend 'recovery' - we should sleep eight hour a day, no more and no less. it's enough for you to sleep in one day. if you sleep like more than eight hours, the water on your body will not stand it. and we'll get dizzy. trust me, it is dizzy.
• set a sleep-in limit - if you can, go to bed earlier on saturday night. automatically, on sunday you'll sleep early too.
• get out into the sun - even if you're late to bed, get up within an hour past your weekday rise time. the morning sun will resets your body clock and your sleeping time will be back on track.

so, there it is, i hope it work. i never tried it though, but i'm sure i will, tomorrow. i guess. :)

well, good luck on trying that one!

"ams"

last flight out - plus one.

I'm so scared that you will see

All the weakness inside of me

I'm so scared of letting go

That the pain I've hid will show

I know you want to hear me speak

But I'm afraid that if I start to

I'll never stop

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

I'm afraid that

You will leave

As my secrets

Have been revealed

In my dreams

You'll always stay

Every breathing moment from now

I know you want to hear me speak

But I'm afraid that if I start to

I'll never stop

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

I cannot hold back

The truth no more

I let you wait too long

Although it's hard and scares me so

A life without you scares me more

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

i want to leave it blank, because i don't know what to say.

so, theatre, again. somehow, i was thinking that i'll change this blog into something that dedicates to my life in the theatre. because from what i've seen, mostly, most of my blog posts are all about theatre, theatre and moreee theatre. i'm pretty sure all of you who read it getting pretty bored huh? well, yeah, me too. after all, i'm the one whose doing it right?

updates on today's practice. everyone did a very great job today, and i'm sure we'll give the best from what we have practicing. we have a great coach and mentor too, and also the casts are great! and they have their own different character to show everybody. i'm so proud of my class. and i'll pray for my class, every single day. :)

tomorrow, i'll be heading to this TV station to gain some money for my theatre. i hope it went well, all we have to do is sit and wait until the show is over. and i hope it's only for an hour.

i'm tired, adn very sleepy. i should get a rest now.

"ams"

a thoughts on a rainy day. part 2.

as you can see in the title, yeah, it's raining. it's cold and breezy, it's a great weather though, i always love rainy day like this. but not too big either. what i feel is, rain is romantic, i said that i guess in my part 1 blog about rain.

you know, the part i love the most is when it's a rainy day, you made yourself a cup of hot chocolate with marshmallow on top of that, and you sit on your rocking chair and wear one of your comfy blanket on and then you're starting to smell the rain and the ground at the same time. i don't know what it called, but i always love the smell of the rain. :) it makes me feel warm and calm.

there's one time, when i'm in swiss for a vacation with my family. and as you know, it's cold and it's raining. i stayed at almost on one of the highest house in swiss and it's cold as hell! but the good thing is, my mom made me a hot choco with marshmallow on. and that was why i love the rainy day. romantic isn't it, if i could then i would wanna do it again. with my bf maybe? hihi.

it's getting bigger outside, but i love it anyway. :)

"ams"