a whole week full with hedonism.

YES YES YES!!! MY THEATRE THINGY IS DONE!!! i'm glad plus relieve, and sad too. i'm gonna miss the togetherness with my fellow theatre mates. because this maybe the first and the last theatre that i'm gonna do in my life. well, it's not really my thing. doing theatrical performance or so. but i know deep in my heart this is not what i like and i want to be for my future life. but yeah, it is a magical experience for me. and thank you thank you thank you for all of my friends of group 1 drama class. i love you all!!! and i'm sorry if i made a mistakes or what-so-ever. i'm glad to be part of this play. :)

oh! we got second place on the production team and for the best actor. isn't it great? we all put our best effort to reach that day. and guess what? it pays off! how glad can i be huh? and now when everything is over and i have my holiday, even though i can't say it's a holiday, it's only a week, what can i do besides sleeping, eating, watching dvds, going out, shopping, etc.? well, i'm happy i have a rest at least. thank God for sleep! it's the only thing that i'll not hate for my entire life! :D

so, after a month maybe without watching a movie, i finally watch 'Alice in Wonderland' and shop!!! oh i love shopping! at first i was confused wether i want to buy shoes or this cute jacket that i want it so much. and i chose shoes. why? well, i love shoes and bags more than clothes! even though i need that jacket too! maybe next time. :)

and the shoes is very cheap! i can get 2 pairs of shoes for only Rp. 200.000! how great is that? and it is a flat shoes, my favorite shoes ever! and i want the slippers too but there are no size left for me. and that makes me wonder why i have this big feet??? my size around 7 or 8. and i wonder why? i think it's normal though. but i don't know. i think my foot are too big for me? oh well...

today i'll be going to this event called JAVA JAZZ FESTIVAL 2010. it's an event for all! haha. well, it's an annual show so yeah, last year i went and it was tons of fun! so i hope this year too! i didn't bought the special show ticket but let me enjoy the regular show instead. :D

"ams"

the distance - oliver james.

The sky has lost its color

The sun has turned to gray

At least that's how it feels to me

Whenever you're away

I crawl up in the corner

To watch the minutes pass

Each one brings me closer to

The time you're coming back

I can't take the distance

I can't take the miles

I can't take the time until I next see you smile

I can't take the distance

And I'm not ashamed

That with every breath I take I'm calling your name

I can't take the distance

I still believe my feelings

But sometimes I feel too much

I make believe you're close to me

But it ain't close enough

Not nearly close enough

I can't take the distance

I can't take the miles

I can't take the time until I next see you smile

I can't take the distance

And I'm not ashamed

That with every breath I take I'm calling your name

I can't take the distance

I'd breathe fire and I'd be free

To be by your side, I'd do anything

I can't take the distance

I will go the distance

I will go the miles

That's how much you mean to me

I can't take the distance

I can't take the miles

I can't take the time until I next see you smile

I can't take the distance

And I'm not ashamed

That with every breath I take I'm calling your name

I can't take the distance

for the song click here.

last flight out - plus one.

I'm so scared that you will see

All the weakness inside of me

I'm so scared of letting go

That the pain I've hid will show

I know you want to hear me speak

But I'm afraid that if I start to

I'll never stop

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

I'm afraid that

You will leave

As my secrets

Have been revealed

In my dreams

You'll always stay

Every breathing moment from now

I know you want to hear me speak

But I'm afraid that if I start to

I'll never stop

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

I cannot hold back

The truth no more

I let you wait too long

Although it's hard and scares me so

A life without you scares me more

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

vanilla twilight - owl city.

The stars lean down to kiss you

And I lie awake and miss you

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly

But I'll miss your arms around me

I'd send a postcard to you dear

'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue

But it's not the same without you

Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad

Till I look at my hands and feel sad

'Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways

Though I haven't slept in two days

'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight

I'll sit on the front porch all night

Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you

I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink

I'll think of you tonight

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter

And heavy wings grow lighter

I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew

But I swear I won't forget you

Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past

I'll whisper in your ear

Oh, darling, I wish you were here

my current addiction to OWL CITY!

at first, i don't know anything about this band called 'owl city'. but after my brother downloaded it on my laptop, and i listen to his song called 'fireflies' and i think, this is great. the music is different, he has a unique voice, and he has the style that for me, new. it's like listening to that kind of pop beat type of song. but, the songs' lyrics are superb! i'm amazed with his music. it's different and new. and i love it!

you can check out his myspace account in here. click click.

be sure to hear his songs, i must say, it's the best, for his genre. hands down. :)

"ams"

movie review - THIS IS IT.

three words, KING OF POP! michael jackson was an amazing person, also very inspiring. he inspired all the dancers around the world. who didn't know about him? and we all know that he already passed away on the 25th of june 2009, but he surely still lives among us. as an entertainer in this world.

at first, he made an announcement that he will have a concert in london on june, if i'm not mistaken, or july, i don't remember anyway, but, he passed away and this movie is all about the rehearsal that he was doing before the concert. this is the preparation that caught on camera, thanks to all the camera crew, they can bring us into the stage (when i saw this movie, i felt like i'm in the audience) we could feel how great he was. and the most important thing is, he was 50 years old when he rehearsed. but he surely know how to did the right moves. i think this is a present from him, his last performance for all of us, well, THIS IS IT.

i really don't know what to reviewed, because this is a documentary movie and you have to watch it if you want it. but i recommended this movie, if you like michael jackson. and until now, i still can't believe he's gone forever.

long live the KING OF POP.

RIP MICHAEL JOSEPH JACKSON (29 AUGUST 1958 - 25 JUNE 2009)

"ams"

Stephen Gately.

i really didn't have any moods on writing something, so i'm going to have this post as a tribute to the late Stephen Gately (17 March 1976 - 10 October 2009, aged 33) former member of Boyzone, one of the greatest Irish band ever.

Born on 17th of March 1976, Stephen Patrick David Gately, he was the fourth out of five child and he was born in Dublin, Ireland. he grew up poor until he appeared in several musical for his school and also many theatre performance. in 1993 he joined the Irish boy band named Boyzone. and the song titled 'Love Me For a Reason' hits UK's chart number two on 1995. and from that on, Boyzone keep on rising and rising until the whole world know about them. and then on the year 2000, Boyzone performed together for the last time and it reached out 35.000 tickets sold and that was the biggest ever on that year.

on 2000, Stephen Gately made a solo debut. his first single titled 'New Beginning' was a hit! and his second single titled 'I Believe' also featured on the movie 'Billy Eliot' on 2000. he became one of the first pop stars that come out as gay. and he wed Andrew Cowles, on 2003 in Las Vegas.

for the sad news, Stephen was found dead on his apartment on Saturday, 10th of October 2009, on the Spanish Island of Majorca, the cause of the death is called pulmonary edema, to put it simple it's like you have fluids in your lungs. he was found dead on the sofa and was discovered by his husband Andrew Cowles.

my thoughts and prayer are for you Stephen. may he rest in peace. :)

firstly i know this news when i was with my brother and daddy to drop of my mother at her friend's house. when i checked my phone and updated my twitter status, i read the news on my phone and found out that he was passed away. i was shocked. from what i know, he seems fine to me. but hear this sad news makes me wanna hear all of Stephen's and Boyzone's songs back again. it's sad really, tragic death of one of the greatest members of Boyzone. i must say i LOVE his voice. he had an amazing voice.

one more person with an amazing voice had left us peeps! :(

"ams"

my current addiction to LENKA!

sooooo, anybody knows what lenka is? well, lenka is basically my current music addiction. her name is LENKA KRIPAC. she was born in australia if i'm not mistaken, she's originally an australian and she's also an actress. even though i don't know much about her acting career. anyway, back again, lenka, well, i know her from her song called 'the show' and i like that kind of music genre. you know, pop and easy listening. for me, it's a great song for sleep. my current iTunes playlist is all about LENKA!!! :)

you should listen her songs. there's too many, but i have to recommend 'the show' and 'trouble is a friend' because those two are my favorite songs from lenka. you can check her music videos and other songs in here.

go buy her album!!! :) i'm pretty sure you'll not gonna regret it!

"ams"

愛のしるし。

this song is dedicated to my lovely bf. this is currently, his favorite song!!! :) you can check this out by clicking this link. right here.

it's called "愛のしるし。" / "Ai no Shirushi by Hi Hi Puffy AmiYumi. one of my favorite japanese band. Ai no Shirushi is "Sign of Love" in english.

romaji lyrics.

with translation.

Yawana ha-to ga shibireru kokochi yoi hari no shigeki
Wake mo nai no ni kagayaku sore dake ga ai no shirushi

(A soft heart goes numb. Comfortable stimulus of the needs.
It shines without reason. That's the only sign of love)

Itsuka anata ni wa
Subete uchi akeyou
Sukoshi tsuyoku naru tame ni
Kowareta bo-to de hitori koide yuku

(Some day, I will open my mind to you. In order to become a little stronger.
I row a broken boat alone.)

Yume no naka demo wakaru mekuru meku yoru no fushigi

(I can tell even in my dreams about the dazzling mysterious night)

Tada no omoide to
Kaze ga sasayaite mo
Ureshi naki no takara mono
Nan demo ari souna kuni de tada hitotsu

(It's just a memory. Even it the wind whispers.
The treasure cry for joy. Only one in the country that seems to have it all.)

Yawana ha-to ga shibireru kokochi yoi hari no shigeki
Wake mo nai no ni kagayaku sore dake ga ai no shirushi
Sore dake de ai no shirushi

(A soft heart goes numb. Comfortable stimulus of the needs.
It shines without reason. That's the only sign of love.)

drum mania V4: Яock×Rock.

recently i blew off my money for playing an arcade in PIM. usually i played in this place called 'fun world'. honestly i'm not the type of person that enjoys arcade like that very much. but i always willing to play this game called 'drum mania'. i once saw a bunch of teenage kids playing it. and they're so great. and i saw my other friend who played that thing too. i said on my mind that someday, when i have guts, i wanna try that machine. and then guess what? I'M ADDICTED TO THAT!!! :)

so, yeah, recently i blew off my money for playing drum mania. it's fun and very enjoyable thing to do. first of all you'll get all dizzy out by looking at the small color lines, but, once you hear the rhythm and the beat, it makes you wanna do more and more. and once you failed a stage, it makes me NOT sad, but it makes me wanna do a lot better than what i did before. and yeah, it's very enjoyable.

i wish for that machine someday, maybe you wanna buy me one? for a birthday present? or just for a gift? i'll thank you for the rest of my life! :p (i'm just kidding guys, but IF you really want to give me that, i'll appreciate it.)

so, any chance for me to get it? well, maybe later! :)

btw, jakarta is cold these days, i think it's already rainy season. can You make it to snowy season my dear Lord? i want that very much. :p

"ams"

jimmy needham - firefly.

my current favorite song. you can check out his song and video in here.

jimmy needham - firefly.

It’s tulips and it’s daisies
Your favorite flowers lately
You think that I ain’t listening, but you know I do
With your two lips on me baby
My head starts getting dazey
Don’t give me a flower
What I want is you

It happened on the day you put your hand in mine
You went up to my head just like a glass of wine
Girl, you spark my attention like a firefly
And make me happy to be alive

You move into a room like
Summer breeze at noon time
Baby, out of nine, I’d give you ten
Your love is like an ocean
Surf and spray in motion
Baby, I’m a diver and I love to swim

It happened on the day you put your hand in mine
You went up to my head just like a glass of wine
Girl, you spark my attention like a firefly
And make me happy to be alive

These are just simple words of mine
And though most of what I feel is hard to rhyme
Ain’t it good to know your boy gave it a try?
O a try
It’d take a thousand colors just to paint your eyes
Like saving grace, they raise me up to paradise
This ain’t opinion, it’s consensus from my heart and mind
You make me happy to be alive

beautiful.

i just want to share my current favorite song. and it's called "beautiful" by trading yesterday. but it's sad knowing that trading yesterday is no longer together. they were the greatest among many of the bands that i like. and the meaning from this song is so great. i also dedicated this song to my lovely best friend, renata, who suffers amnesia at the moment. it happens to be her favorite song too. and someday, when she's back to her normal self, i'll definitely show this blog page to her. enjoy!

*you can check their song here.

"BEAUTIFUL"

by: trading yesterday.

And time stands still beneath the air of waiting hours
To touch, just to feel a love that seems to overpower me
She's all I'll ever need
And you know her love just hypnotizes me
'Til All I see is beautiful

At night I dream that you were sent to me from heaven
My Life, it seems so lonely here without your presence
You could change my everyday
And I could never think of love without your name
As you remain---

Beautiful--- like the summer rain to wash away the winter stain
Beautiful--- like the morning sun inviting the dawn to break
Beautiful--- like the joy that comes when the love you've longed for has just begun
Beautiful--- making everything brand new
Beautiful you

And all this time you're changing me to something better
A love so high that everyday that we're together
I will leave the world below
Until your heart becomes the only thing I know
All I know is---

Beautiful--- like the summer rain to wash away the winter stain
Beautiful--- like the morning sun inviting the dawn to break
Beautiful--- like the joy that comes when the love you've longed for has just begun
Beautiful--- making everything brand new
Beautiful you