a whole week full with hedonism.

YES YES YES!!! MY THEATRE THINGY IS DONE!!! i'm glad plus relieve, and sad too. i'm gonna miss the togetherness with my fellow theatre mates. because this maybe the first and the last theatre that i'm gonna do in my life. well, it's not really my thing. doing theatrical performance or so. but i know deep in my heart this is not what i like and i want to be for my future life. but yeah, it is a magical experience for me. and thank you thank you thank you for all of my friends of group 1 drama class. i love you all!!! and i'm sorry if i made a mistakes or what-so-ever. i'm glad to be part of this play. :)

oh! we got second place on the production team and for the best actor. isn't it great? we all put our best effort to reach that day. and guess what? it pays off! how glad can i be huh? and now when everything is over and i have my holiday, even though i can't say it's a holiday, it's only a week, what can i do besides sleeping, eating, watching dvds, going out, shopping, etc.? well, i'm happy i have a rest at least. thank God for sleep! it's the only thing that i'll not hate for my entire life! :D

so, after a month maybe without watching a movie, i finally watch 'Alice in Wonderland' and shop!!! oh i love shopping! at first i was confused wether i want to buy shoes or this cute jacket that i want it so much. and i chose shoes. why? well, i love shoes and bags more than clothes! even though i need that jacket too! maybe next time. :)

and the shoes is very cheap! i can get 2 pairs of shoes for only Rp. 200.000! how great is that? and it is a flat shoes, my favorite shoes ever! and i want the slippers too but there are no size left for me. and that makes me wonder why i have this big feet??? my size around 7 or 8. and i wonder why? i think it's normal though. but i don't know. i think my foot are too big for me? oh well...

today i'll be going to this event called JAVA JAZZ FESTIVAL 2010. it's an event for all! haha. well, it's an annual show so yeah, last year i went and it was tons of fun! so i hope this year too! i didn't bought the special show ticket but let me enjoy the regular show instead. :D

"ams"

my life recently. part 4.

well...hellooooo mates! around the world!!! i'm back. finally, i can manage to seek in here to write. so, how are you doing right now? fine? that'll be great! :D well, for me, life recently is still flat. although, i finished up my final exam, that's a great news. but, unlike anybody else, i still have my duty. yeah, you guess it. theatre. again and again...

i'm surely not gonna talk about it though, but i just want to let you know. to be honest i'm a bit confused. what to tell in here. hmmm. let's see then...

first of, i need to go shopping! like, immediately! i need new clothes, new shirts, new pants maybe, new shoes and jackets and so on and oh God, it's way too much! i wish my daddy will take me on a shopping spree this sunday. i don't have anything to do on sunday. hmmm. church, yeah, besides that. well, no plan at all.

i'm gonna leave soon. my bed is calling me. :D

"ams"

my life recently. part 3.

wow, it's been a long time i guess. hey guys. what's happening to your life there? happy? well...that's good to hear, for me, my life is pretty much pathetic lately. tired. of course. not because of my theatre thing, it's my final exam week, and i'm so packed up! as i mention earlier on my blog, almost every single test for my final exam is a take home test. that means, paper, paper and more paper. it sucks i know, even my printer hate it. it jammed and i don't know what happen to it right now. it's not functioning very well. just like my brain i guess. oh God...

let's get this thing over with.

anyway, i think i call it a day. i'm tired. i'll blog to you all later...

"ams"

rest week huh?

it's the third day of my rest week before my final exam. but guess what? i've been busy with these assignments and my theatre thing. so, i'm pretty sure that this is not a rest week for me. oh my God, i can't stand it anymore. my head is spinning around when i hear my alarm beeping this morning. i am so hating my alarm sound now. ugh. i'm tired, extremely tired. my doctor said that i have to have a goodnight sleep. but that seems impossible enough. with this assignments, works, stuffs, etc. just kill me already.

i have to stop whining about all of this though, i know, if i keep on saying 'i'm tired' or 'i can't do this' it will make me more and more frustrated and of course, tired.

so little time, so much to do...

"ams"

my life recently. part 2.

well, still busy. of course. assignments, theatre, more theatre, properties making, etc. and yes, my head is starting to lose control. yet, i don't think my brain is functioning very well. ugh! the only day for me to rest is on sunday. from monday to saturday i have a lot of things to do. yeah, you know. stuffs. though, i am very thankful that until now, i'm strong enough to get through with this. and i know, these things will be over soon, before we even notice. :)

so, the theatre is coming real soon! and i'm very excited. i hope we'll give our best and we hope the crowd will enjoy it as much as we do. so, always pray for my class, the crew, the casts, etc. let us be on our way!!! :D

that's that, i'm off, making my assignments. yay!

"ams"

my life recently.

i've been busy. again, and always. :( i'm tired! and i can't take it anymore. i think i already reach my limit. ugh! i hate college now. i want to make the time quickly change to march. when i'll be celebrating my birthday, holiday and many things i want to do except for college stuffs, ugh, it sucks! all i have in my mind is holiday and sleeping. lots of sleeping time. i have too much assignments and too little time to handle it. it's not like i delay it or anything, but it's way too much! God, i'm sooo freakin' tired these days. i'm so sorry i don't update much, i'm too tired to even open up my laptop.

the good news is, i'm using blackberry now. :D yes, i am very exciting about it. although i find it really difficult at first. but, as the time goes by, i'll get through. i hope. somehow. :)

my next wish is iPod touch, it's fun and yet, it's iPhone look-a-like, i don't have the courage to ask my daddy to buy me an iPhone. because it's too expensive in here. so, why don't i ask for an iPod touch instead? maybe on my birthday i will. wish me luck guys!

so, the final exam is near, and guess what? from seven subjects that i'm on, only one subject that have a final test that actually a theory test which is media relation. and again, i repeat, ONE SUBJECT! for the rest is a take home test, making paper and stuff. ugh, i'm sick of it. it makes my life so miserable. but that is my obligations as a student. i hope this semester went very well. amennn!!!

i think i'm gonna end up my blog for today. have a great day mates! :)

"ams"

new year resolution.

so, i've been thinking a lot lately about what i should do and don't. but then, i looked back on my 2009 list, and found out that, i'm not being a really good girl enough. i think. i know nobody is perfect, but then, why don't we try it on. to be a perfect person. yeah, that is one of my many resolution for this year. but then again, i'm not gonna be one though. so here's my list of doomed!!!

2010 resolution and wants:

• more close to God, pray every single time! be thankful for everything He gave me.
• family, still comes first. always pray for my dad, mom, brother, everyone. wish for the best for them.
• bf, my round bf, i love you, and that's enough. we can make this thing through right? :)
• friends, best friends, mates, lads, everyone who knows me. i love you guys. you're a part of my life already. i can't write all of your name here but you know you are one that i'll continually pray for.
• especially for my upcoming theatre, JTTW HA!
• studies, ugh! i know it's been pretty hard for me to catch up, but i hope i'll great a good score this semester, and on.
• i'd like to do something, a part time job maybe?
• be a better person. everyday.
• maybe get an iPhone? haha. :p
• not being lazy, even though it's hard. i know it's hard.
• cook! i can't cook, so i want to start studying all about cooking. because i love to eat tasty food and i want to make it on my own.
• a job in photography would be great. anyone?
• buys lots of shoes and bags. because i'm craving for those!
• lomo fisheye. still don't have that thing. and i want one of those!
• saving up some money. i need this thing. i can't keep on counting on my mom and dad. i want to make my own money, or at least save 'em up a little bit.
• slim up my body. hahaaa~
• etc.

well, i think that's enough for today. maybe i'll think a bit and maybe it'll be more from this. and i hope, this is not just a writing, it will came true. and i hope i can. wish me luck guys! and of course, if you have your resolution, good luck for that. we can make it happen if we are willing for it to happen. right?

"ams"

happy new year!!! (i know it's late)

HAPPY NEW YEAR MATES!!!

i am so sorry i didn't updates my blog, it's all because i went to someplace, cold place to celebrate new year with my mom, dad and my bf. it was so nice, the place is not so crowded, and yet, it's cold! even though it's not snowing but, i kinda hope i was, but nah! but anyway, i wish you a better year to live on, keep your health on the right spot, always and always have enough sleep and don't forget to pray everyday. :)

gotta list up my new year resolution. i'll see you around!

"ams"

movie review - LAW ABIDING CITIZEN.

if i said earlier, i've never watch a movie recently, for this holiday i spent my days watching movies. almost every movie i saw. including this one, for me, it's the greatest unexpected movie i've ever seen. it's called, "LAW ABIDING CITIZEN". great movie, with a great casts to play. so, here's my review for the movie.

title: LAW ABIDING CITIZEN.

directed by: f. gary grey.

casts: jamie foxx as nick rice, gerard butler as clyde shelton, etc.

review:

(not a spoiler)

clyde (played by butler), lost his wife and daughter at a very tragic accident. his wife and daughter was murdered by two guys named arnes and darby. while ten years later, nick, the genius engineer made a revenge, but he don't like to be called as 'revenge' to his wife and daughter's death. while, nick, put him away on the jail and make him confess what clyde have done. but aside of that, clyde threaten nick, and make deals between both of them. if nick doesn't clear the deal, then something bad is gonna happen. and that what this movie all about. what can really happen if nick didn't obey him? and how can clyde blew up cars when he's in jail? you have to see it for yourself.

for me, it's a great movie, not a boring movie and of course, recommended much! i wanna watch it again if i can. maybe this is the last movie i saw in 2009. maybe. or, maybe tomorrow sherlock holmes will be out. well, we'll find out about that later.

"ams"

i wish christmas is everyday.

did you guys have a wonderful christmas day? for me, yeah! i got my wish on christmas and i get to spent my days with my family and my bf outside town. so, it's a very brand new atmosphere for me and it's a whole new tradition i guess. we've never done this before. :)

now that christmas is a year ahead, i wish for it to come sooner or later. because i love the christmas day. as i said before, it is my favorite day ever. and then i'm thinking of making my day everyday christmas day. but i can't. ha! well, the christmas tree is still there, and the weird thing is my mom puts the christmas sign on the tree, even though christmas is over. and when i ask her out, she said, "let christmas be everyday in this house." well, if she wants that way then why not. but we'll see, it'll came true or not.

even if, there's no tree, or christmas songs, i can feel it in my heart and i can make it feel everyday is christmas. and i hope it stays out throughout the year until christmas comes again.

thank you Jesus, You were born to this pathetic world to bring us peace. :)

"ams"

it's finally christmas.

so, it's finally here. my favorite time of the year. christmas time. finally here! i am sooo excited, even if i hear the word 'christmas' i feel so happy. :) and now, it's here. i already went to the church, for a christmas eve church. and then, i went to my gramps' house and we had our traditional christmas family dinner. but this year menu is also traditional. not like the usual foods like last year, we had turkeys, stuffed, mashed potatoes, beers, etc. but tonight, we didn't have any of that. it's all about traditional food. and i'm stuffed!

christmas, for me is a very special day. first, it's because it is the day Jesus was born to the earth to become our Saviour. but then, the other thing is, it's the anniversary for me and my bf. because we set the relationship straight on this day. :)

i hope we all have the best christmas day ever, and i wanna wish you, again, to have a wonderful christmas. and God bless you!!!

*i'll be going on the 25th to 27th, so, maybe i'll not update my blog. but i'll be missing you!*

"ams"

HAPPY CHRISTMAS 2009!!!

i'm here to say,

HAVE A WONDERFUL TIME OF CHRISTMAS DAY TO ALL OF YOU

MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY

HAPPY CHRISTMAS

2009

may the Christmas joy fulfill your life, hopes and dreams

Where is He Who has been born King of the Jews? For we have seen His star in the east at its rising and have come to worship Him.

(Matthew 2:2)

"ams"

movie review - AVATAR (in 3D).

it's been a long time since i last saw a movie. and i even forgot what's the last movie i watched. oh well. so, yesterday, i watched this movie called 'AVATAR'. the one that keeps everyone talking about, and people said it was worth to watch. then, i'll write what i want to say about this movie.

title: AVATAR.

directed by: james cameron.

casts: sam worthington as jake sully, zoe saldana as neytiri, sigourney weaver as grace austine, etc.

review:

(not a spoiler)

the movie took place in pandora, the land of the origins creature called Na'vi. those from earth finds it odds to live with them. because they have their own language and living life things. jake (played by worthington), after he lost his brother in war, decided to take his late brother mission. even though he's paraplegic, (simply, can't walk because his leg lost its function). the purpose he goes to this mission is to get more information about the Na'vi's woodland. for that mission, jake got a new identity called 'avatar' to able him to communicate with the Na'vi. and the story change after he met neytiri (played by saldana). wanna see the rest for yourself? go watch it!

well, for me, the greatest thing about this movie is the 3D effects. for the story, not so much. it's three hours straight and i'm bored to hell. the story lost and found its climax, so it's so hard for me to enjoy the rest of the movie. although, it's interesting, how the avatar's hair can connect to almost everything and controls them. i wish i can do that. haha. but, overall, it's james cameron's movie anyway. it turned out very great. and i'd like to give 9,5 for the graphic, and 7 for the story. i can't say 10, because nothing's prefect in this life right? :)

"ams"

incurable disease.

what a day for today. it seems like, nine hours of my life today gone too fast. finally, i got my haircut today. it's still long, only shorter. it's nice though if you can see it. and this hair suits me well enough for the rest of the year. ha! can you imagine, it's only 10 days left until the end of 2009. and then there'll be 2010, my age will be 21 at that time. wow, we're getting older and i'm still the same old me trying to living my life completely surrender to my God. :)

so, about life, about my title, "INCURABLE DISEASE". believe me or not, i have that. incurable disease. surprise? yeah, what about me? it was discovered may 2009, my doctor told me that my disease is incurable. what i felt back there was, shocked at first. my tears want to fell down, sadness surrounds me. i feel like i'm dying. i'm too young to die. but, my doctor told me that this disease of mine, isn't deadly like the others. well, that's a relieve. but, then again, i can't go back to normal again. i'll depends on this medication forever, for the entire life of mine. because nobody has found the cure for this disease. i can't tell you what this disease called, because i'm too embarrassed to say it.

i have to go back to the doctor every single month, and my doctor will gave me a brand new drug, every month to make this disease gone. but, it will reappear if i'm too stressed out, if i'm too tired and lack of sleep.

it's sad really, i have to depends on this stupid drugs. all i can do is pray, that someday, someone will find the cure for this disease of mine and i'll be back to normal, healthy, and live up my life more brighter. :)

please pray for me guys! and also, you have to thank God, if you have a curable disease. because you're lucky. :)

"ams"

christmas is coming real soon! :)

so, it's the 20th of december already, which means, it's only five more days to christmas and also, my anniversary with my bf. :) well, it's sure comes pretty fast huh? i never wish for anything better this christmas, because i know i'll get what i want on christmas. but the most excited thing on this year christmas' is i get to spend my christmas with my family and also my bf outside jakarta. isn't that wonderful? for me, i don't need any christmas present, celebrating christmas with your family and your love one are the most wonderful gift ever on christmas day. and i can't wait to do so. :D

oh, i'm on my holiday now on. all i get to do is sleeping, more sleeping and more more and more sleeping. because i need that, i really am. all my 'time' sacrifice are all payed off by it. and i get to sleep like more than eight hours a day from now on. isn't that magical? haha. :p

tomorrow i'll cut my hair off, i'm getting tired with this long hair, not that i want to cut my hair short, but i'm gonna cut them off for like five or seven centimeters. it's already way too long and i'm sick of it. also the weather is hot in here, so, i'm gonna shorten my hair up tomorrow.

another christmas spirit, i'm gonna cross christmas presents with my bf. and i already bought what he likes and i hope he use it for the rest of his life. i can't write what's inside his presents because he'll read my blog. that's not gonna be a surprise right? ughhh!!! that's why i can't wait any longer for christmas day to come! i am soooooooo thrilled!!!

now that i realized, i haven't seen a movie recently. i even forgot the last movie i saw. hmmm. i wanna catch up. maybe next week i'll go to the movie with my bf. :)

have a great holiday mates!!! :)

"ams"

it's only a matter of time.

tick...tock...tick...tock...

it's only a week ahead and then it's all about holiday, christmas, sleeping, new year, more sleeping time, and again, SLEEPING!!! i'm tired and messed up. i need a goddamn 24 hours of resting and do nothing except for one thing, that is sleeping.

this week is awful! i'm very VERY extremely TIRED!!! full of responsibility, assignment, more assignment, more and more jobs to do, anything that involved with theatre thing. i know i always babbling about theatre stuff, but please, even i am very tired of this frikin' theatre thingy.

(-.-'')

i can't wait to get some sleep, i can't wait to get some lazy time alone in my room doing nothing, just sleeping, reading, maybe cleans up my room because it's extremely messy in here. keep my health on the right spot, rest my head off especially my brain. because i don't think it's functioning clearly. even though i thought about something, my mind just fell right through. and all i have in my mind is all about theatre. again and again. that's why i need a 24 hours of rest and a holiday. a very LONG HOLIDAY.

oh my God, i can feel the ocean is calling my name, and the mountain too. i think it's already time to take a rest. for a while...

"ams"

i've had enough and i need a holiday right away!

it's bad. i'm totally bored with this situation! i don't know why but i hate this! again and again, always, everyday, it's like i'm running in circle in order to get through until february 2010. please, i need a major break from all of my activity. and yes, i know this is my responsibility, but every single person has their limit, and for me, i already reach mine. :(

please, holiday come early.

because i know next year it's gonna be worst than this year, everything will be very extremely hectic and chaos everywhere. but i know, someday, it'll get through. i hope it does.

no need to write anything again i guess, you all know what am i going through recently right? huff. i'm tired.

"ams"

i'm tired enough to get mad.

i can't stand to live with someone that is have a high level of pessimistic. it's like, you have a life but you're controlled by someone else? and you always giving up so easily. my God, you're pathetic. it's also useless, trying to get this pessimistic people up again. if we gave them support, at first they will think about it. but after they think about it, there must be something that can make them think that they can't never do it. come on, what are you?

i have my own believe that people can change if they are willing to change. and i'm pretty sure lots of people knows that. we can do it, with or without support, but the question is do you want to change?

don't answer that if you're not sure about your answer. i don't need your answer anyway, i need your prove. i know it's not that fast, but why don't you have a try? try to change isn't so bad. i've done it. and believe me, it works! well, it's because i am willing to do it.

so, the key to success is will! remember, if there's a will, there's a way. :)

again, i can't stand anyone with a big level of pessimistic. sorry.

"ams"

december, the most magical month.

gosh! it's december already folks! i cannot believe it. what can i say, this year is way too fast than i thought. maybe because i'm too focus on my theatre thingy and stuffs. but hey, it's the second of december already. and 2009 it's only 28 days left. i can't believe it! wow! :)

and if december already here, then christmas is near too!!! yippieee!!! i am soooo happy!!! can you tell? hihi. so, christmas. i already have a plan already. and it's a plan with my big family and of course my lovely bf. at first, my mom never told me about going out of town on christmas, because every year, on christmas eve, my big family always gathers in my cousin's house. and we celebrate until late. drinks, turkey, great musics, alcohol, etc. all the great stuffs to celebrate. but then, yesterday, my mom told me that we'll be going out of town on 25th of christmas. and yes, that was shocking at first. because my bf and i already make a plan. but then, the plan had changed. i'll be going with my family and so does my bf. :)

so, i'll be celebrating christmas with my family and my bf. yaaayyy!!! oh my gosh, i am so happy. december is the happiest month of all this year i guess. :D

oh! oh! oh! my daddy bought me another christmas tree!!! yeay!!! i have two christmas trees this year. what can i say? december is truly a magic month. love it! :)

have a great day on december everyone!!!

"ams"

yeah, it's you i'm talking about.

anger.

this is not supposed to be my job, because this is not my part of the theatre.

screw you guys!