drum mania V4: Яock×Rock.

recently i blew off my money for playing an arcade in PIM. usually i played in this place called 'fun world'. honestly i'm not the type of person that enjoys arcade like that very much. but i always willing to play this game called 'drum mania'. i once saw a bunch of teenage kids playing it. and they're so great. and i saw my other friend who played that thing too. i said on my mind that someday, when i have guts, i wanna try that machine. and then guess what? I'M ADDICTED TO THAT!!! :)

so, yeah, recently i blew off my money for playing drum mania. it's fun and very enjoyable thing to do. first of all you'll get all dizzy out by looking at the small color lines, but, once you hear the rhythm and the beat, it makes you wanna do more and more. and once you failed a stage, it makes me NOT sad, but it makes me wanna do a lot better than what i did before. and yeah, it's very enjoyable.

i wish for that machine someday, maybe you wanna buy me one? for a birthday present? or just for a gift? i'll thank you for the rest of my life! :p (i'm just kidding guys, but IF you really want to give me that, i'll appreciate it.)

so, any chance for me to get it? well, maybe later! :)

btw, jakarta is cold these days, i think it's already rainy season. can You make it to snowy season my dear Lord? i want that very much. :p

"ams"

faith.

you know one thing that i'd normally do for my life is praying. i'm sure you guys do that too. but what i mean here is, i pray for every occasion that i am in. that i'm in it. every single second if i can. i'm not being too big about this praying thing but yeah, hey, look at this. how many second, minutes even hour for you to watch tv, online, college, sleeping, etc. ? compare that to how long have you've been praying for today? come on, it's like 1:10 i guess. because that was me, before i know my God does exist in this world.

lately, there's been some kind of weird news and fake news or even a made-up story that made a hell a scare out of me. but for some reason, i can't trust that damn news. the news was all about the earthquake, because recently there have been too many accident that cause indonesia to panic attack. i must say, in twitter, earthquake is the main topic EVERYDAY!

the point is, what i'm trying to tell you guys about all of this is, hey! you're not GOD! you can predict that to happen, but what comes around goes around. and if you're scared with that stupid news than you must be an atheist. for me, i believe in God, and i'm not afraid. if He wants to take me away then He'll do it. but if not, then He still gave me life to move on and to live on. just trust Him and let Him lead our way. because there's nothing compare to Him.

HAVE FAITH IN GOD.

so, yeah, ya'll get the point right? whatever the news is whatever the condition is have faith in Him. because our life and death is based upon Him. pray every time, every single day. and He'll give you the greatest gift ever.

okay, not to sound so priest or anything but yeah, that was my thought on this starry night. it's cold outside, and i'm turning off my air conditioner. gotta change to my pajamas soon because my leg is cold. so i guess i'll see you guys later.

*i wish jakarta is snowing!*

:)

"ams"

thoughts after church.

so, yeah, as i told you lately, i went to the church. and i just got back from this place called 'toys cafe' which sells food and of course serve game consoles like ps2, xbox, wii and board games. it's a great place to hang out, besides the place is full of cigarettes despite the place is full of air conditioner. but aside of that, toys cafe is great!!!

well, back to macro. church. what i get and what i learn from what my priest said today is all about family.

from ephesians 5:22-33.

Exhortations to Households

5:22 Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord, 5:23 because the husband is the head of the wife as also Christ is the head of the church – he himself being the savior of the body. 5:24 But as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything. 5:25 Husbands, love your wives just as Christ loved the church and gave himself for her 5:26 to sanctify her by cleansing her with the washing of the water by the word, 5:27 so that he may present the church to himself as glorious – not having a stain or wrinkle, or any such blemish, but holy and blameless. 5:28 In the same way husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. 5:29 For no one has ever hated his own body but he feeds it and takes care of it, just as Christ also does the church, 5:30 for we are members of his body. 5:31 For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and will be joined to his wife, and the two will become one flesh. 5:32 This mystery is great – but I am actually speaking with reference to Christ and the church. 5:33 Nevertheless, each one of you must also love his own wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband. (http://bible.org/netbible/index.htm)

i already read this part like a thousand times. and i still love it! it's like what you've searched about 'family' is fully explained by this part.

love your family, husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend, brother, sister, cousins, everyone that you love. don't ever let them go away from you, because for me, family is my greatest treasure EVER!!! i love my family, and thank God for my dad, mom and brother. i love them so much as much as they love me. thank you. :)

"ams"

electricity fails.

okay so, here's the thing. first of all i'd like to thank God for electricity. because without it, this world will be very dark. second, i'd like to thank PLN (the company that serves electricity in my country.) for the electricity. but you know what, even if there's an electricity, there's a fail out of it.

lately, jakarta's PLN (or other city too, idk.) shuts the electricity down. i don't know exactly why, but i don't expect this thing to be everyday. because it's hot in jakarta and without the air conditioner it'll be hotter than ever!!! :(

at 3:00 pm, the light is down. i don't know if your place was shut or not but my place is down, and so did my bf's house. coincidence? yeah right. so, we chat on the phone because we had nothing interesting to do when the light shuts down. we talked about things, about almost anything that we can talk about. and what's funny and yet, romantic is, he made an imaginary story about us. things like romantic thing that i hope he'll do it to me. oh gosh, that'll be nice. :)

ok, back to electricity. hmmmm. so, my bf told me on the phone that this electricity shutting will be last for one month! oh God. i just wish this thing will be over soon. and i hope they'll shuts the electricity down when i'm in my campus. haha. so there'll be no class. :D

i'll be going to the church soon. i hope i'll get something today. :)

"ams"

things are not very good lately.

finally, the rain has stopped! it's warm and breezy right now. i like the weather this way. it's better than the hot summer weather. this kind of weather is good for relaxing, or even sleeping. without air conditioner, yeah, that'll be nice. on my current playlist is from the fray, it's a great song to relaxing my head up from this current situation of mine.

can everybody just be happy? just like snapping your finger out like that? what's wrong with my life lately. it's been pretty hard lately i know. things aren't going out very well for me. life is pretty much sucks.

from college, yeah, my assignment is growing faster! and that's mean LOTS OF ASSIGNMENT!!! and then this theatre coming out soon in december. oh God. i can imagine what is like being on that month! it'll be pretty messed up i'm sure.

sounds pathetic am i? yeah, i am. for now. i just can't think straight! optimist? for now, IT'S WAY OUT! it's like paramore's song called "For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic". it's me right now. it's like i'm falling WAY DOWN LOW! and i can't find something to cheer me up, to lift me back up, and that's why i will go to the church, to get something i hope.

not to mention the assignment for tomorrow, oh God! i need an island getaway!!!

"ams"

a thoughts on a rainy day.

it's raining outside, and it's heavy! just like yesterday when i left bogor in the highway. the rain is so big i can't almost saw a thing! good thing we arrived safely in jakarta. oh God, look at this heavy rain! it's like Jesus is crying. it's so big!

well, i like rain, but depends actually. for me rainy day is a romantic day. you know, i'm being fantasied here but hey, i am a daydreamer. okay, start with this not too big house but not too little house in the mountain high, hmm, i'd like in alpine. that'll be great right??? well, carry on then, sooo, there was me and him (whoever it is, i was hoping my bf), in the terrace yard, sitting in the small bench, together, he was hugging me and i'm on his leap of shoulder. okay it's staring to get romantic here. hmmmm. and then it was rain, small rain will be enough, and then i made hot chocolate for two. and then, bossa musics start to play on the back. yeah, there it is, my perfect story. and i hope it'll became true. i just pray to God.

okay, the rain is finally cooling down. it's starting to slowing down. and i hope that it is. please, no more heavy rain my dear God. pretty please!!! :)

i love you rain, but not this big! okay?!

blog to you all later! :)

"ams"

thoughts before i sleep.

i've been kinda weird lately, my emotion runs high, my mood become ups and downs, the atmosphere is bad, dark and all blur out, i'm miserable lately. in fact, i don't know exactly who i am.

have you ever feels like there's two you in your body? or in your life?

for me, yeah, i am. and i know that. it's like, one side of me is the 'angel' me and the other side of me is the 'devil' me. sometimes, depends on my current mood and situation, i can get the 'angel' side of me go out but sometimes when i'm feeling all hazel out it's the 'devil' me that controls me. i think i need something new, something inspiring for me. well it's for me and for others too i think. i don't want to have 2 sides of me in one body. sometimes when i'm in the middle of 'angel' and 'devil' my head is all dizzy. i want to scream that thing out loud and yet, i can't that i cries.

i'm the type of person that easily cries, but i tend to hold up my tears so it wont come out. and turned out to be i can't control my breath. my heart is totally hurt and i can't breath sometimes. from what i've learn, i have to get that thing going on out. or there'll be something really hurt happens to your body. for me, i get sick. my body temperature will rise up and i'll be down. deep down. and nobody can't leave me back up again.

life is hard, but we must face it no matter what. because this is what God plans us to be, this is what He wants us to living. i thank God for everything that He gave me everyday, i seek for help to Him, i beg for mercy for Him. that's why even though i complained about my life, He'll be there for me. thank God for Your existence. :)

i tried to change my life, i am one person with a high level of egoism. yeah i do. and i'd like to change that. i know i can, i need supports, but i have to have a will on my mind. if not, there'll be no result for that. i hope i can. hey, like they said, "IF THERE'S A WILL, THERE'S A WAY." and of course, i will be! i know i can!!!

well, there it is, my life recently. i guess i have to buy this book called, "THE RULES OF LIFE." by richard templar if i'm not wrong. yeah, i need that. and i'll tell all about that book later. i'll do some review in here.

"ams"