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recent updates...

2010-12-02T22:43:00.002+07:00

oh my God, it's been a while since i wrote in here. and i'm kinda miss it. my life recently is pretty much a roller coaster ride. i'm on my last year of college and thinking of taking my master after i graduated next year. you know it, when it comes to the last year at college, it means thesis! sucks right? yeah i know...

so, before we get on that thesis thing, i want to talk about my life for a moment. first of, family, yes! my favorite thing in this world. so, it's already december and you know what this mean right? CHRISTMAS!!! yes, it's the time to joy! although, i always forgot to set my christmas tree. tomorrow. i promise! i don't know what will be my gift for this year christmas. maybe, my best wish is to be happy and blessed always by God. i don't mind having an iPad though. haha! :D

second, internship. is it new to your ear? yes! i'm an employee for an automotive magazine! it's coming to an end though, but it's been a very great experience to me. not so my type but, not bad. but i would really love to try working on my mom's company. you know, trying the 9-to-5 work hour, sitting on a chair and staring at the computer all day long. wearing good working-outfit. maybe i'll try applying there.

third, yes, here it comes, THESIS!!! AGH!!! i hate thesis! it's like i don't want to do it but they forced me to do it. i hate it! why should we make a thesis for? why can't you just pass me with a good grade and i'll never come back and move on with my life. oh God. i chose my sickness as my topic, and i hope it'll turn out very good. i just want to graduate fast, make my parents proud of me and moving on to my master degree then have a superb job with high enough salary to live my life with. oh Lord.....i hate thesis.....

as i said, my life is a roller coaster alright. ups and downs, good and bad, but i still thank my Lord for all of these. He gave me the best in life. thank you! :)

wish me luck on my thesis please!

ams

a whole week full with hedonism.

2010-03-05T11:27:00.002+07:00

YES YES YES!!! MY THEATRE THINGY IS DONE!!! i'm glad plus relieve, and sad too. i'm gonna miss the togetherness with my fellow theatre mates. because this maybe the first and the last theatre that i'm gonna do in my life. well, it's not really my thing. doing theatrical performance or so. but i know deep in my heart this is not what i like and i want to be for my future life. but yeah, it is a magical experience for me. and thank you thank you thank you for all of my friends of group 1 drama class. i love you all!!! and i'm sorry if i made a mistakes or what-so-ever. i'm glad to be part of this play. :)

oh! we got second place on the production team and for the best actor. isn't it great? we all put our best effort to reach that day. and guess what? it pays off! how glad can i be huh? and now when everything is over and i have my holiday, even though i can't say it's a holiday, it's only a week, what can i do besides sleeping, eating, watching dvds, going out, shopping, etc.? well, i'm happy i have a rest at least. thank God for sleep! it's the only thing that i'll not hate for my entire life! :D

so, after a month maybe without watching a movie, i finally watch 'Alice in Wonderland' and shop!!! oh i love shopping! at first i was confused wether i want to buy shoes or this cute jacket that i want it so much. and i chose shoes. why? well, i love shoes and bags more than clothes! even though i need that jacket too! maybe next time. :)

and the shoes is very cheap! i can get 2 pairs of shoes for only Rp. 200.000! how great is that? and it is a flat shoes, my favorite shoes ever! and i want the slippers too but there are no size left for me. and that makes me wonder why i have this big feet??? my size around 7 or 8. and i wonder why? i think it's normal though. but i don't know. i think my foot are too big for me? oh well...

today i'll be going to this event called JAVA JAZZ FESTIVAL 2010. it's an event for all! haha. well, it's an annual show so yeah, last year i went and it was tons of fun! so i hope this year too! i didn't bought the special show ticket but let me enjoy the regular show instead. :D

"ams"

my life recently. part 4.

2010-02-05T20:21:00.002+07:00

well...hellooooo mates! around the world!!! i'm back. finally, i can manage to seek in here to write. so, how are you doing right now? fine? that'll be great! :D well, for me, life recently is still flat. although, i finished up my final exam, that's a great news. but, unlike anybody else, i still have my duty. yeah, you guess it. theatre. again and again...

i'm surely not gonna talk about it though, but i just want to let you know. to be honest i'm a bit confused. what to tell in here. hmmm. let's see then...

first of, i need to go shopping! like, immediately! i need new clothes, new shirts, new pants maybe, new shoes and jackets and so on and oh God, it's way too much! i wish my daddy will take me on a shopping spree this sunday. i don't have anything to do on sunday. hmmm. church, yeah, besides that. well, no plan at all.

i'm gonna leave soon. my bed is calling me. :D

"ams"

my life recently. part 3.

2010-01-27T20:23:00.002+07:00

wow, it's been a long time i guess. hey guys. what's happening to your life there? happy? well...that's good to hear, for me, my life is pretty much pathetic lately. tired. of course. not because of my theatre thing, it's my final exam week, and i'm so packed up! as i mention earlier on my blog, almost every single test for my final exam is a take home test. that means, paper, paper and more paper. it sucks i know, even my printer hate it. it jammed and i don't know what happen to it right now. it's not functioning very well. just like my brain i guess. oh God...

let's get this thing over with.

anyway, i think i call it a day. i'm tired. i'll blog to you all later...

"ams"

rest week huh?

2010-01-20T19:22:00.002+07:00

it's the third day of my rest week before my final exam. but guess what? i've been busy with these assignments and my theatre thing. so, i'm pretty sure that this is not a rest week for me. oh my God, i can't stand it anymore. my head is spinning around when i hear my alarm beeping this morning. i am so hating my alarm sound now. ugh. i'm tired, extremely tired. my doctor said that i have to have a goodnight sleep. but that seems impossible enough. with this assignments, works, stuffs, etc. just kill me already.

i have to stop whining about all of this though, i know, if i keep on saying 'i'm tired' or 'i can't do this' it will make me more and more frustrated and of course, tired.

so little time, so much to do...

"ams"

my life recently. part 2.

2010-01-17T12:18:00.002+07:00

well, still busy. of course. assignments, theatre, more theatre, properties making, etc. and yes, my head is starting to lose control. yet, i don't think my brain is functioning very well. ugh! the only day for me to rest is on sunday. from monday to saturday i have a lot of things to do. yeah, you know. stuffs. though, i am very thankful that until now, i'm strong enough to get through with this. and i know, these things will be over soon, before we even notice. :)

so, the theatre is coming real soon! and i'm very excited. i hope we'll give our best and we hope the crowd will enjoy it as much as we do. so, always pray for my class, the crew, the casts, etc. let us be on our way!!! :D

that's that, i'm off, making my assignments. yay!

"ams"

my life recently.

2010-01-11T23:04:00.002+07:00

i've been busy. again, and always. :( i'm tired! and i can't take it anymore. i think i already reach my limit. ugh! i hate college now. i want to make the time quickly change to march. when i'll be celebrating my birthday, holiday and many things i want to do except for college stuffs, ugh, it sucks! all i have in my mind is holiday and sleeping. lots of sleeping time. i have too much assignments and too little time to handle it. it's not like i delay it or anything, but it's way too much! God, i'm sooo freakin' tired these days. i'm so sorry i don't update much, i'm too tired to even open up my laptop.

the good news is, i'm using blackberry now. :D yes, i am very exciting about it. although i find it really difficult at first. but, as the time goes by, i'll get through. i hope. somehow. :)

my next wish is iPod touch, it's fun and yet, it's iPhone look-a-like, i don't have the courage to ask my daddy to buy me an iPhone. because it's too expensive in here. so, why don't i ask for an iPod touch instead? maybe on my birthday i will. wish me luck guys!

so, the final exam is near, and guess what? from seven subjects that i'm on, only one subject that have a final test that actually a theory test which is media relation. and again, i repeat, ONE SUBJECT! for the rest is a take home test, making paper and stuff. ugh, i'm sick of it. it makes my life so miserable. but that is my obligations as a student. i hope this semester went very well. amennn!!!

i think i'm gonna end up my blog for today. have a great day mates! :)

"ams"

movie review - SHERLOCK HOLMES.

2010-01-06T20:17:00.004+07:00

so, the first movie i watched this year is "SHERLOCK HOLMES". well, it's a blockbuster anyway, and my brother said it was worth to watch. so, why don't i? besides, robert downey jr. and jude law? pft! perfect combination! so, here's my review...

title: SHERLOCK HOLMES.

directed by: guy ritchie.

casts: robert downey jr. as sherlock holmes, jude law as john watson, etc.

review:

(not a spoiler)

after catching a weird sorcerer, lord blackwood, holmes and his partner of life watson made it clear. they solved the case and made lord blackwood death by suspension law. but, the mystery is yet still come. it appears that lord blackwood returns from the grave and make another chaos that he said earlier to holmes before his punishment. lord blackwood said that three more people will die after his death. and it happens. will holmes and watson succeed to stop lord blackwood? is it true that the one who returns from grave is lord blackwood? well, you have to see it for yourself. this movie is superb!

an awesome movie to watch, and believe me, this movie is smart! yet, great! the best movie to watch on this early 2010. it made me want to watch it again and again. it have a sequel too. i don't know when its gonna opens up, but i hope it's great like the first one. i'm waiting for it!!! :)

"ams"

new year resolution.

2010-01-02T16:28:00.002+07:00

so, i've been thinking a lot lately about what i should do and don't. but then, i looked back on my 2009 list, and found out that, i'm not being a really good girl enough. i think. i know nobody is perfect, but then, why don't we try it on. to be a perfect person. yeah, that is one of my many resolution for this year. but then again, i'm not gonna be one though. so here's my list of doomed!!!

2010 resolution and wants:

more close to God, pray every single time! be thankful for everything He gave me.
family, still comes first. always pray for my dad, mom, brother, everyone. wish for the best for them.
bf, my round bf, i love you, and that's enough. we can make this thing through right? :)
friends, best friends, mates, lads, everyone who knows me. i love you guys. you're a part of my life already. i can't write all of your name here but you know you are one that i'll continually pray for.
especially for my upcoming theatre, JTTW HA!
studies, ugh! i know it's been pretty hard for me to catch up, but i hope i'll great a good score this semester, and on.
i'd like to do something, a part time job maybe?
be a better person. everyday.
maybe get an iPhone? haha. :p
not being lazy, even though it's hard. i know it's hard.
cook! i can't cook, so i want to start studying all about cooking. because i love to eat tasty food and i want to make it on my own.
a job in photography would be great. anyone?
buys lots of shoes and bags. because i'm craving for those!
lomo fisheye. still don't have that thing. and i want one of those!
saving up some money. i need this thing. i can't keep on counting on my mom and dad. i want to make my own money, or at least save 'em up a little bit.
slim up my body. hahaaa~
etc.

well, i think that's enough for today. maybe i'll think a bit and maybe it'll be more from this. and i hope, this is not just a writing, it will came true. and i hope i can. wish me luck guys! and of course, if you have your resolution, good luck for that. we can make it happen if we are willing for it to happen. right?

"ams"

happy new year!!! (i know it's late)

2010-01-02T16:19:00.002+07:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR MATES!!!

i am so sorry i didn't updates my blog, it's all because i went to someplace, cold place to celebrate new year with my mom, dad and my bf. it was so nice, the place is not so crowded, and yet, it's cold! even though it's not snowing but, i kinda hope i was, but nah! but anyway, i wish you a better year to live on, keep your health on the right spot, always and always have enough sleep and don't forget to pray everyday. :)

gotta list up my new year resolution. i'll see you around!

"ams"

movie review - LAW ABIDING CITIZEN.

2009-12-29T20:59:00.003+07:00

if i said earlier, i've never watch a movie recently, for this holiday i spent my days watching movies. almost every movie i saw. including this one, for me, it's the greatest unexpected movie i've ever seen. it's called, "LAW ABIDING CITIZEN". great movie, with a great casts to play. so, here's my review for the movie.

title: LAW ABIDING CITIZEN.

directed by: f. gary grey.

casts: jamie foxx as nick rice, gerard butler as clyde shelton, etc.

review:

(not a spoiler)

clyde (played by butler), lost his wife and daughter at a very tragic accident. his wife and daughter was murdered by two guys named arnes and darby. while ten years later, nick, the genius engineer made a revenge, but he don't like to be called as 'revenge' to his wife and daughter's death. while, nick, put him away on the jail and make him confess what clyde have done. but aside of that, clyde threaten nick, and make deals between both of them. if nick doesn't clear the deal, then something bad is gonna happen. and that what this movie all about. what can really happen if nick didn't obey him? and how can clyde blew up cars when he's in jail? you have to see it for yourself.

for me, it's a great movie, not a boring movie and of course, recommended much! i wanna watch it again if i can. maybe this is the last movie i saw in 2009. maybe. or, maybe tomorrow sherlock holmes will be out. well, we'll find out about that later.

"ams"

i wish christmas is everyday.

2009-12-28T12:04:00.003+07:00

did you guys have a wonderful christmas day? for me, yeah! i got my wish on christmas and i get to spent my days with my family and my bf outside town. so, it's a very brand new atmosphere for me and it's a whole new tradition i guess. we've never done this before. :)

now that christmas is a year ahead, i wish for it to come sooner or later. because i love the christmas day. as i said before, it is my favorite day ever. and then i'm thinking of making my day everyday christmas day. but i can't. ha! well, the christmas tree is still there, and the weird thing is my mom puts the christmas sign on the tree, even though christmas is over. and when i ask her out, she said, "let christmas be everyday in this house." well, if she wants that way then why not. but we'll see, it'll came true or not.

even if, there's no tree, or christmas songs, i can feel it in my heart and i can make it feel everyday is christmas. and i hope it stays out throughout the year until christmas comes again.

thank you Jesus, You were born to this pathetic world to bring us peace. :)

"ams"

it's finally christmas.

2009-12-24T23:15:00.002+07:00

so, it's finally here. my favorite time of the year. christmas time. finally here! i am sooo excited, even if i hear the word 'christmas' i feel so happy. :) and now, it's here. i already went to the church, for a christmas eve church. and then, i went to my gramps' house and we had our traditional christmas family dinner. but this year menu is also traditional. not like the usual foods like last year, we had turkeys, stuffed, mashed potatoes, beers, etc. but tonight, we didn't have any of that. it's all about traditional food. and i'm stuffed!

christmas, for me is a very special day. first, it's because it is the day Jesus was born to the earth to become our Saviour. but then, the other thing is, it's the anniversary for me and my bf. because we set the relationship straight on this day. :)

i hope we all have the best christmas day ever, and i wanna wish you, again, to have a wonderful christmas. and God bless you!!!

*i'll be going on the 25th to 27th, so, maybe i'll not update my blog. but i'll be missing you!*

"ams"

HAPPY CHRISTMAS 2009!!!

2009-12-24T23:05:00.003+07:00

i'm here to say,

HAVE A WONDERFUL TIME OF CHRISTMAS DAY TO ALL OF YOU

MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY

HAPPY CHRISTMAS

2009

may the Christmas joy fulfill your life, hopes and dreams

Where is He Who has been born King of the Jews? For we have seen His star in the east at its rising and have come to worship Him.

(Matthew 2:2)

"ams"

movie review - AVATAR (in 3D).

2009-12-23T12:34:00.004+07:00

it's been a long time since i last saw a movie. and i even forgot what's the last movie i watched. oh well. so, yesterday, i watched this movie called 'AVATAR'. the one that keeps everyone talking about, and people said it was worth to watch. then, i'll write what i want to say about this movie.

title: AVATAR.

directed by: james cameron.

casts: sam worthington as jake sully, zoe saldana as neytiri, sigourney weaver as grace austine, etc.

review:

(not a spoiler)

the movie took place in pandora, the land of the origins creature called Na'vi. those from earth finds it odds to live with them. because they have their own language and living life things. jake (played by worthington), after he lost his brother in war, decided to take his late brother mission. even though he's paraplegic, (simply, can't walk because his leg lost its function). the purpose he goes to this mission is to get more information about the Na'vi's woodland. for that mission, jake got a new identity called 'avatar' to able him to communicate with the Na'vi. and the story change after he met neytiri (played by saldana). wanna see the rest for yourself? go watch it!

well, for me, the greatest thing about this movie is the 3D effects. for the story, not so much. it's three hours straight and i'm bored to hell. the story lost and found its climax, so it's so hard for me to enjoy the rest of the movie. although, it's interesting, how the avatar's hair can connect to almost everything and controls them. i wish i can do that. haha. but, overall, it's james cameron's movie anyway. it turned out very great. and i'd like to give 9,5 for the graphic, and 7 for the story. i can't say 10, because nothing's prefect in this life right? :)

"ams"

incurable disease.

2009-12-21T21:50:00.005+07:00

what a day for today. it seems like, nine hours of my life today gone too fast. finally, i got my haircut today. it's still long, only shorter. it's nice though if you can see it. and this hair suits me well enough for the rest of the year. ha! can you imagine, it's only 10 days left until the end of 2009. and then there'll be 2010, my age will be 21 at that time. wow, we're getting older and i'm still the same old me trying to living my life completely surrender to my God. :)

so, about life, about my title, "INCURABLE DISEASE". believe me or not, i have that. incurable disease. surprise? yeah, what about me? it was discovered may 2009, my doctor told me that my disease is incurable. what i felt back there was, shocked at first. my tears want to fell down, sadness surrounds me. i feel like i'm dying. i'm too young to die. but, my doctor told me that this disease of mine, isn't deadly like the others. well, that's a relieve. but, then again, i can't go back to normal again. i'll depends on this medication forever, for the entire life of mine. because nobody has found the cure for this disease. i can't tell you what this disease called, because i'm too embarrassed to say it.

i have to go back to the doctor every single month, and my doctor will gave me a brand new drug, every month to make this disease gone. but, it will reappear if i'm too stressed out, if i'm too tired and lack of sleep.

it's sad really, i have to depends on this stupid drugs. all i can do is pray, that someday, someone will find the cure for this disease of mine and i'll be back to normal, healthy, and live up my life more brighter. :)

please pray for me guys! and also, you have to thank God, if you have a curable disease. because you're lucky. :)

"ams"

the distance - oliver james.

2009-12-20T22:49:00.003+07:00

The sky has lost its color

The sun has turned to gray

At least that's how it feels to me

Whenever you're away

I crawl up in the corner

To watch the minutes pass

Each one brings me closer to

The time you're coming back

I can't take the distance

I can't take the miles

I can't take the time until I next see you smile

I can't take the distance

And I'm not ashamed

That with every breath I take I'm calling your name

I can't take the distance

I still believe my feelings

But sometimes I feel too much

I make believe you're close to me

But it ain't close enough

Not nearly close enough

I can't take the distance

I can't take the miles

I can't take the time until I next see you smile

I can't take the distance

And I'm not ashamed

That with every breath I take I'm calling your name

I can't take the distance

I'd breathe fire and I'd be free

To be by your side, I'd do anything

I can't take the distance

I will go the distance

I will go the miles

That's how much you mean to me

I can't take the distance

I can't take the miles

I can't take the time until I next see you smile

I can't take the distance

And I'm not ashamed

That with every breath I take I'm calling your name

I can't take the distance

for the song click here.

christmas is coming real soon! :)

2009-12-20T11:17:00.006+07:00

so, it's the 20th of december already, which means, it's only five more days to christmas and also, my anniversary with my bf. :) well, it's sure comes pretty fast huh? i never wish for anything better this christmas, because i know i'll get what i want on christmas. but the most excited thing on this year christmas' is i get to spend my christmas with my family and also my bf outside jakarta. isn't that wonderful? for me, i don't need any christmas present, celebrating christmas with your family and your love one are the most wonderful gift ever on christmas day. and i can't wait to do so. :D

oh, i'm on my holiday now on. all i get to do is sleeping, more sleeping and more more and more sleeping. because i need that, i really am. all my 'time' sacrifice are all payed off by it. and i get to sleep like more than eight hours a day from now on. isn't that magical? haha. :p

tomorrow i'll cut my hair off, i'm getting tired with this long hair, not that i want to cut my hair short, but i'm gonna cut them off for like five or seven centimeters. it's already way too long and i'm sick of it. also the weather is hot in here, so, i'm gonna shorten my hair up tomorrow.

another christmas spirit, i'm gonna cross christmas presents with my bf. and i already bought what he likes and i hope he use it for the rest of his life. i can't write what's inside his presents because he'll read my blog. that's not gonna be a surprise right? ughhh!!! that's why i can't wait any longer for christmas day to come! i am soooooooo thrilled!!!

now that i realized, i haven't seen a movie recently. i even forgot the last movie i saw. hmmm. i wanna catch up. maybe next week i'll go to the movie with my bf. :)

have a great holiday mates!!! :)

"ams"

it's only a matter of time.

2009-12-13T23:00:00.002+07:00

tick...tock...tick...tock...

it's only a week ahead and then it's all about holiday, christmas, sleeping, new year, more sleeping time, and again, SLEEPING!!! i'm tired and messed up. i need a goddamn 24 hours of resting and do nothing except for one thing, that is sleeping.

this week is awful! i'm very VERY extremely TIRED!!! full of responsibility, assignment, more assignment, more and more jobs to do, anything that involved with theatre thing. i know i always babbling about theatre stuff, but please, even i am very tired of this frikin' theatre thingy.

(-.-'')

i can't wait to get some sleep, i can't wait to get some lazy time alone in my room doing nothing, just sleeping, reading, maybe cleans up my room because it's extremely messy in here. keep my health on the right spot, rest my head off especially my brain. because i don't think it's functioning clearly. even though i thought about something, my mind just fell right through. and all i have in my mind is all about theatre. again and again. that's why i need a 24 hours of rest and a holiday. a very LONG HOLIDAY.

oh my God, i can feel the ocean is calling my name, and the mountain too. i think it's already time to take a rest. for a while...

"ams"

i've had enough and i need a holiday right away!

2009-12-12T08:26:00.002+07:00

it's bad. i'm totally bored with this situation! i don't know why but i hate this! again and again, always, everyday, it's like i'm running in circle in order to get through until february 2010. please, i need a major break from all of my activity. and yes, i know this is my responsibility, but every single person has their limit, and for me, i already reach mine. :(

please, holiday come early.

because i know next year it's gonna be worst than this year, everything will be very extremely hectic and chaos everywhere. but i know, someday, it'll get through. i hope it does.

no need to write anything again i guess, you all know what am i going through recently right? huff. i'm tired.

"ams"

i'm tired enough to get mad.

2009-12-05T22:09:00.003+07:00

i can't stand to live with someone that is have a high level of pessimistic. it's like, you have a life but you're controlled by someone else? and you always giving up so easily. my God, you're pathetic. it's also useless, trying to get this pessimistic people up again. if we gave them support, at first they will think about it. but after they think about it, there must be something that can make them think that they can't never do it. come on, what are you?

i have my own believe that people can change if they are willing to change. and i'm pretty sure lots of people knows that. we can do it, with or without support, but the question is do you want to change?

don't answer that if you're not sure about your answer. i don't need your answer anyway, i need your prove. i know it's not that fast, but why don't you have a try? try to change isn't so bad. i've done it. and believe me, it works! well, it's because i am willing to do it.

so, the key to success is will! remember, if there's a will, there's a way. :)

again, i can't stand anyone with a big level of pessimistic. sorry.

"ams"

december, the most magical month.

2009-12-02T22:08:00.005+07:00

gosh! it's december already folks! i cannot believe it. what can i say, this year is way too fast than i thought. maybe because i'm too focus on my theatre thingy and stuffs. but hey, it's the second of december already. and 2009 it's only 28 days left. i can't believe it! wow! :)

and if december already here, then christmas is near too!!! yippieee!!! i am soooo happy!!! can you tell? hihi. so, christmas. i already have a plan already. and it's a plan with my big family and of course my lovely bf. at first, my mom never told me about going out of town on christmas, because every year, on christmas eve, my big family always gathers in my cousin's house. and we celebrate until late. drinks, turkey, great musics, alcohol, etc. all the great stuffs to celebrate. but then, yesterday, my mom told me that we'll be going out of town on 25th of christmas. and yes, that was shocking at first. because my bf and i already make a plan. but then, the plan had changed. i'll be going with my family and so does my bf. :)

so, i'll be celebrating christmas with my family and my bf. yaaayyy!!! oh my gosh, i am so happy. december is the happiest month of all this year i guess. :D

oh! oh! oh! my daddy bought me another christmas tree!!! yeay!!! i have two christmas trees this year. what can i say? december is truly a magic month. love it! :)

have a great day on december everyone!!!

"ams"

yeah, it's you i'm talking about.

2009-11-29T15:19:00.001+07:00

anger.

this is not supposed to be my job, because this is not my part of the theatre.

screw you guys!

eleven, soccer team.

2009-11-25T19:32:00.002+07:00

'cause the spaces between my fingers

are right where yours fit perfectly'

HAPPY ELEVENTH MONTHS TO US MY DEAREST

IRVAN SETIAWAN!!!

i hope everything happens between us is a gift from God, that we have to face it, no matter what the situations are, the consequences are and the troubles are in our life, let that thing be something that can make us stronger as a couple.

one more month to our anniversary, i hope we can make it through and again, build to last.

'it's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life.'

"ams"

quick updates.

2009-11-25T19:11:00.001+07:00

it's such a long time since i didn't made an update. firstly because, blogger was banned in indonesia for, well i don't know exactly how long, but every time i opened it, it can't. i don't know why at first, but this morning i heard the news that blogger was banned because of someone in indonesia made a bad blog. i don't know what it is all about to be exact but, the stupid thing is, this 'someone' that made a bad blog used wordpress not blogger. and why was blogger the one that being banned? how stupid it was. i don't know anything about wordpress because i'm not using it. so, yeah, it was a stupid thing.

so, on the 23rd of november, err...it's monday if i'm not mistaken, i went to jakarta's so called 'china town' located in glodok. it is quite a place, since i've never been there. i went because i had to do my job as the property crew. to search for some props for the theatre. and yes, i'm still on my theatre thingy. i hope you're not bored with that. because i'm not. i get used to it though. :p

the place is quite unique for me, it's a great place to take a picture, but unfortunately i'm not taking any. but i'll go back there i guess. i'm not done with my props yet. still, there's too many things that i need to buy from that place. and the foods seems nice too. and delicious. ugh! i wanna go back and have something to eat there. :)

oh! my mid exam test results are coming out. but it turned out to be not so great. i'm afraid my grades will be dropping down. i'm not gonna let that happen. i'll do my best to have a good score. i promise myself to have at least, one A. or two. and i hope i can do it. well, i must do it anyway. good luck for me. :)

for the last updates, CHRISTMAS IS NEAR!!! and i'm very excited about it. i've done my first christmas' shopping spree. and i'm willing to go to the next. my mom wanna buy a new christmas tree, but she still confused what color should she chose. i'm thinking a little snowy blue will be nice right? or whatever the color is, as long as i have a brand new christmas tree. i can feel the christmas spirit in me. also, on the first christmas' shopping spree, i bought david archuleta's christmas album. and it's so great!!! and it is my current playlist on my car. :)

only a month left before christmas, and i can't wait to celebrate it!!! :)

"ams"

tips to prevent the 'monday blues'.

2009-11-18T18:03:00.005+07:00

so, here's what i've got from this month's readers digest. tips on how to prevent your monday blues. you know, everyone seems to hate waking up early in the monday morning. well, i do too. sleeping is the only thing i love the most at a time like this. plus, when it's raining in the morning, oh God, that is for me is what i called PERFECT LIFE! it's hard enough to open up your eyes, but it's even hard for me to face the truth that i'll go to a class on monday morning. it sucks, i know.

but i read this great article from readers digest and maybe i will try it on monday. or even tomorrow morning. oh well, we'll see it then.

BEAT THE SLEEPING HABBIT.

avoid the weekend 'recovery' - we should sleep eight hour a day, no more and no less. it's enough for you to sleep in one day. if you sleep like more than eight hours, the water on your body will not stand it. and we'll get dizzy. trust me, it is dizzy.
set a sleep-in limit - if you can, go to bed earlier on saturday night. automatically, on sunday you'll sleep early too.
get out into the sun - even if you're late to bed, get up within an hour past your weekday rise time. the morning sun will resets your body clock and your sleeping time will be back on track.

so, there it is, i hope it work. i never tried it though, but i'm sure i will, tomorrow. i guess. :)

well, good luck on trying that one!

"ams"

last flight out - plus one.

2009-11-18T17:49:00.003+07:00

I'm so scared that you will see

All the weakness inside of me

I'm so scared of letting go

That the pain I've hid will show

I know you want to hear me speak

But I'm afraid that if I start to

I'll never stop

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

I'm afraid that

You will leave

As my secrets

Have been revealed

In my dreams

You'll always stay

Every breathing moment from now

I know you want to hear me speak

But I'm afraid that if I start to

I'll never stop

I want you to know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

I cannot hold back

The truth no more

I let you wait too long

Although it's hard and scares me so

A life without you scares me more

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

i want to leave it blank, because i don't know what to say.

2009-11-14T21:56:00.003+07:00

so, theatre, again. somehow, i was thinking that i'll change this blog into something that dedicates to my life in the theatre. because from what i've seen, mostly, most of my blog posts are all about theatre, theatre and moreee theatre. i'm pretty sure all of you who read it getting pretty bored huh? well, yeah, me too. after all, i'm the one whose doing it right?

updates on today's practice. everyone did a very great job today, and i'm sure we'll give the best from what we have practicing. we have a great coach and mentor too, and also the casts are great! and they have their own different character to show everybody. i'm so proud of my class. and i'll pray for my class, every single day. :)

tomorrow, i'll be heading to this TV station to gain some money for my theatre. i hope it went well, all we have to do is sit and wait until the show is over. and i hope it's only for an hour.

i'm tired, adn very sleepy. i should get a rest now.

"ams"

a thoughts on a rainy day. part 2.

2009-11-12T12:14:00.003+07:00

as you can see in the title, yeah, it's raining. it's cold and breezy, it's a great weather though, i always love rainy day like this. but not too big either. what i feel is, rain is romantic, i said that i guess in my part 1 blog about rain.

you know, the part i love the most is when it's a rainy day, you made yourself a cup of hot chocolate with marshmallow on top of that, and you sit on your rocking chair and wear one of your comfy blanket on and then you're starting to smell the rain and the ground at the same time. i don't know what it called, but i always love the smell of the rain. :) it makes me feel warm and calm.

there's one time, when i'm in swiss for a vacation with my family. and as you know, it's cold and it's raining. i stayed at almost on one of the highest house in swiss and it's cold as hell! but the good thing is, my mom made me a hot choco with marshmallow on. and that was why i love the rainy day. romantic isn't it, if i could then i would wanna do it again. with my bf maybe? hihi.

it's getting bigger outside, but i love it anyway. :)

"ams"

it's starting. i guess.

2009-11-10T22:11:00.004+07:00

my mid term gonna end tomorrow, and that doesn't mean that i'll be free like a bird or something. hell no! what i have to face next is THEATRE!!! never get tired of saying that word. i have guard my health, i don't wanna get sick or anything. and i'll be coming home pretty late from now on, so...

"my dear God, i pray to You to protect me and all of my friends in this theatre. we hope for the very best and we will give the very best to all of the audience and most of all to You. i hope we'll pass this theatre with something to learn, something that made us better day by day, and most of all, it'll make us much closer than before. because from all i know is, this is the last thing we'll do together as one class. so, keep your health up and good luck for all of us. in the name of Jesus Christ i said my prayer, for me and of course, for my dearest friends. AMEN!!!"

i never prayed on my blog before, and i just did. :)

so, GOOD LUCK THEATRE GROUP 1!!! JOURNEY TO THE WEST!!!

"ams"

are back stabbers the same with hypocrites person?

2009-11-09T22:55:00.005+07:00

for me, nah! they're not the same. from what i know is one person, take me for example, could have those two types of person. i could be like that. but that will be very rude. okay, here's the thing. i'm not that rude as a human being. i don't want to hurt anyone, any person anybody. i'm trying to make everyone around me feel happy. but like they said, 'NICE PEOPLE OFTEN GETS HURT' and i'm not saying that i'm the nicest person in this world, but a lot of people keep telling me that, i'm a nice person. even my bf said that for a human being, i'm too soft to be rude. well, that's who i am. i can't be mad to other people if they made a mistake, or IF they made a mistake i'll forget it. come on, nobody's perfect. and you know it's true.

so, about back stabbers. the person who stabs you from your back. like talking about you, mean things about you, negative things about you, well, i've been in that very situation. it was in my high school year, grade 12, when my school made a school sport event. and i'm the head of the food and beverage team. i stay all day in the f&b station for a week, i'm doing my job the right way, and i didn't leave my station at all (except for going to the toilet). but what did my friend said? one of my friend said that i'm not doing my job properly. she said i leave the station all the time and i didn't take care of the f&b seriously. i was like, confused at first, but after i know who's behind this nonsense situation, i realized, what's the used of doing like that? back stabber thing. what i had in my mind that day is just forget it, she don't know what she's doing to me. for me, i'm doing my own way. i did what i did best, and that's that. and the result? well, the next day, this girl that back stabbed me went home earlier, crying, because of what? well, you don't want to know. :p

and then we have, hypocrite. well, it's the same. but i have to admit it, we all human being are hypocrite. right? who wouldn't? again, we aren't perfect in every way, we all made mistakes. hypocrite is cruel. to make it simple, hypocrite is something you do when you're avoiding something but you really aren't avoiding that thing. get it? it's like for example, you like someone, but when your friend told you that he/she like him/her too and your friend ask you if you like him/her and you said NO. then you're a hypocrite. i'm sure you get it by now. if not, well, search it in the internet. :p

i usually find things like back stabber and hypocrite in friendship. you know, when you like someone and that person is your friend's bf/gf and you didn't care about that and you keep doing it, you keep pushing yourself to be with him/her. OR! even when you like your best friend's ex. ugh God! GET A LIFE MAN! it's weird you know, hear things like that. but what can we do? there's no such thing is a best friend that acts like a true best friend anyway. and i have to tell you this, DON'T YOU EVER TRUST A PERSON 100%. because when he/she lied to you, it hurts so much. and i know it, very much.

what you can do now is just realized, how imperfect we are in this world. and no one will be as perfect as our God.

"ams"

what i think of my life recently.

2009-11-07T11:07:00.003+07:00

it's been pretty tiring lately. campus stuffs, mid term exams, assignments, more and more assignments. it seems like it will never gonna end soon. and i'm getting tired. but hell! i mustn't complaining, this is what i chose and i must do it. so, i'm spinning my head round and round and found out things that for me, i just realize it in my life. and it's all about time.

yesterday, i went to my campus to do my assignment and of course, theatre. when we went home, (there's me, my bf and my friend come along) we talked about how much time did we spend outside and inside our house. well, that surely made me think. and that's right, i've never been thinking that much. and i just realized that i spend my 24 hours mostly outside my house. so, to make it simple, here's the details:

i woke up at six o'clock every monday to friday. (mostly)
my class ends up at twelve o'clock every monday to friday.
if i don't have anything to do, i went to the mall to get some lunch or watch a movie or do stuffs like that.
if i'm very sleepy, i'll go straight back home.
recently, i have my theatre thing, and it makes my time outside more and more longer than before.
if i have my theatre thing, i'll be home late. very late i presume.
the only day that i could lay my head on the pillow for a long time is on sunday

so, pathetic ey? yeah, i know. if i count all the hours and minutes, it will be like this. from monday to saturday i'll be at home for approx. 10 hours maximum. 8 hours minimum. and outside home, it will be 14 hours a day maximum, or could be minimum. :(

you know what i'm thinking? it's like, i have a home, home sweet home, but it's not the place that i'll stay for a long time. one thing that i surely do at home is sleeping.

i have a house, but i don't feel like i'm using it properly. (well, not my house, my parents' house. but i stay there for a very long time now.)

"ams"

vanilla twilight - owl city.

2009-11-05T21:32:00.003+07:00

The stars lean down to kiss you

And I lie awake and miss you

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly

But I'll miss your arms around me

I'd send a postcard to you dear

'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue

But it's not the same without you

Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad

Till I look at my hands and feel sad

'Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways

Though I haven't slept in two days

'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight

I'll sit on the front porch all night

Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you

I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink

I'll think of you tonight

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter

And heavy wings grow lighter

I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew

But I swear I won't forget you

Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past

I'll whisper in your ear

Oh, darling, I wish you were here

my current addiction to OWL CITY!

2009-11-05T21:11:00.005+07:00

at first, i don't know anything about this band called 'owl city'. but after my brother downloaded it on my laptop, and i listen to his song called 'fireflies' and i think, this is great. the music is different, he has a unique voice, and he has the style that for me, new. it's like listening to that kind of pop beat type of song. but, the songs' lyrics are superb! i'm amazed with his music. it's different and new. and i love it!

you can check out his myspace account in here. click click.

be sure to hear his songs, i must say, it's the best, for his genre. hands down. :)

"ams"

movie review - THIS IS IT.

2009-11-05T18:31:00.006+07:00

three words, KING OF POP! michael jackson was an amazing person, also very inspiring. he inspired all the dancers around the world. who didn't know about him? and we all know that he already passed away on the 25th of june 2009, but he surely still lives among us. as an entertainer in this world.

at first, he made an announcement that he will have a concert in london on june, if i'm not mistaken, or july, i don't remember anyway, but, he passed away and this movie is all about the rehearsal that he was doing before the concert. this is the preparation that caught on camera, thanks to all the camera crew, they can bring us into the stage (when i saw this movie, i felt like i'm in the audience) we could feel how great he was. and the most important thing is, he was 50 years old when he rehearsed. but he surely know how to did the right moves. i think this is a present from him, his last performance for all of us, well, THIS IS IT.

i really don't know what to reviewed, because this is a documentary movie and you have to watch it if you want it. but i recommended this movie, if you like michael jackson. and until now, i still can't believe he's gone forever.

long live the KING OF POP.

RIP MICHAEL JOSEPH JACKSON (29 AUGUST 1958 - 25 JUNE 2009)

"ams"

christmas please come early. :)

2009-11-03T19:13:00.002+07:00

i'm sure you all notice that i already change my songs on this page into christmas' songs right? well it is. and i'm pretty sure too, that you all know that christmas is coming real soon. hey, it's november already. and december will be up in like a month. i'm getting very excited here! :) so, here's the thing, i wanna buy a new christmas tree, because i don't know where my mom put the old one. so, i decided to buy one. and i'll decorate it and make my house full of christmas' ornaments.

in my family, we always celebrate christmas on the 24th of december, on the christmas eve to be exact. why? well, because we all have to go to the church first, and then we'll gather at my cousin home to celebrate until the 25th. and i have to say, christmas is the best thing ever! i always love christmas. but it's a shame i'm not living in a place that can actually snowing. ugh! but thank God i already felt it. white christmas. oh my God, it's so romantic. :)

please christmas, come early!!! :)

"ams"

movie review - BANLIEUE 13 ULTIMATUM/DISTRICT 13 ULTIMATUM.

2009-11-02T21:48:00.007+07:00

at first, i wanna watch 'this is it', michael jackson's movie, but, after a long thinking and i have to move from one mall to another, so me and my bf decided to watch this movie called 'district 13 ultimatum' (D13 U). the film is notable for its depiction of 'parkour' in a number of stunt sequences that were completed without the use of w

ires or computer effects. it's a french movie and if somehow you realize, or even had watch this movie, yes, it is the sequel of the 'district 13' movie. but i never watch the first sequel, so, it's a little bit confusing at first, but after you watch it carefully, you'll know the story.

title: 'BANLIEUE 13 ULTIMATUM/DISTRICT 13 ULTIMATUM'

directed by: patrick alessandrin.

casts: cyril raffaelli as damien tomaso, david belle as leito and other casts.

review:

(not a spoiler)

it happens in 2013, in france, district 13, they call it B13 in the movie. in B13 lives several race of people in there. for example, the chinese, moslem, negro, etc. and they lived under they own race. earlier,

3 years ago, the government made a promise to fix B13 into more 'human' to live on. but, whatreally happens is it never came true. and for worst, B13 is going to be demolished by the government. so, to save the B13, leito and damien have to do something about it. see what happens

for yourself.

it is a great movie, again, it doesn't matter whether you watch the first movie or not. but i must

tell you, look out for the first scene, at the beginning of this movie. and then, enjoy the show! :)

"ams"

what should i say and pray?

2009-11-01T08:06:00.003+07:00

i can't believe it's november already. time flew so fast ey mate? i just woke up and i reach for my phone and check out the calender, hey! it's november! october ends up quicker than i expected. one thing for sure, it's getting closer and closer to december! christmas!!! yeay! i have decided to buy a new tree, and decorate it in my house, i'll turn my living room into a room full of christmas' ornaments. :) oh my God, i get so excited really!!!

but not so fast! i still have my mid term exam and of course, theatre. i never bored by saying that, theatre. theatre. theatre. oh well, back again, i have my assignment too for the theatre thing, drawing and then actually make the properties, yeah, my life recently, i would say pathetic, much. maybe i don't have time with other people except my college friends, but i'll make some time. i only get a full day of rest at sunday, and i have to to church, make properties again, etc. oh God! this is getting pretty much tiring. but i'm sure i can cope with that.

so, my schedule for two weeks are out, so yeah, i hope i can do it without getting sick or anything. i have to keep up my body in a good shape and health. i don't wanna get sick, who does anyway? :p

i wish everyone a happy sunday and God bless you all. :)

"ams"

series review - glee.

2009-10-30T20:59:00.004+07:00

so, i've been watching this series, called 'glee' and here's my review:

title: 'GLEE'

a high school spanish teacher becomes the director of the schools 'glee club', hoping to restore it to its former glory. so he decided to became the teacher and the choreographer for the club. will schuester (matthew morrison), the main character of this movie, also have a family, that is growing, and he have to make a choice between his career and his family. and the jocks, finn hudson (cory monteith) is struggling between his status as the famous football player and the membership of the 'glee club'. meanwhile there's rachel berry (lea michele) the girl in school that is always being bullied by almost everyone. but she have a big compassion for the 'glee club'. and there's lots of characters that will bring the new musical thing come back but in a different kinda way.

i already watch it until the third episode, and for me, 'glee' is great. it's like high school musical but way better! i can't wait to watch it again, also, cory monteith is cute! :p

"ams"

stop complaining and do something.

2009-10-30T19:24:00.003+07:00

i just felt, the worst part of college. theatre!!! ugh! even though, i'm not that tired, not yet, my part is coming soon! as the member of property and stage crew, i'm gonna do lots of work by making the stuffs that we'll use and equipments and other things. so, yeah, welcome to my tiring life.

well, this is a start, and i already felt so tired. but, i enjoy this. being with friends, doing stupid things, laughing, talking, gossiping, etc. well, for me, it pays me off. the truth is, i am really really tired, but i'm trying hard to enjoy it too. this is a one of a lifetime chance to be a part of this theatre, which i'm pretty much sure will be very very great! :) all the hard work, the sacrifice, time and money, energy, i'm sure it's gonna be great!!!

okay i think i just repeat the sentence twice, but with a different words. sorry. but, in my head right now is, what should i say, hmmm...blank. i need a rest, but not that much, but i need it.

tired. hey, i'm sure that everyone in my class are tired. sure, they'll complain, but not for me, i'm trying to enjoy myself while i can. i will get tired, of course, i'm still a human being though. get a rest, don't force yourself, the others will understand your condition, so stop complaining. human have a limit, we all know that, but hey, there's must be something that can prevent you from getting tired. so, please, take a good care of your health. drink lots of water, sleep well eight hours a day, believe me, it's enough, too much sleep can make you tired easily. drink a vitamin everyday, but most of all, pray to God. pray that He will give you good health, mind and body. so we can make this theatre the greatest thing ever! :)

so, good luck to all of us.

"ams"

people just can't say yes or no that simple.

2009-10-28T06:50:00.003+07:00

to make this blog short, i have a question that is still running through my head for almost what? three years i guess. and i don't have any good answer to match thus stupid question. it is the most simple, yet straight question that i believe everyone can make up their mind very fast.

WHY CAN'T PEOPLE JUST SAY YES or NO IN A QUESTION?

for me, you're stupid when you can't do that. sorry, but it's true, make up your mind guys. you're not seven years old girl or boy anymore. you're a well grown up. (if, you're above 18.)

"ams"

taming your temper.

2009-10-26T17:54:00.003+07:00

i've been reading 'Reader's Digest' lately. and i found out that this book have so many things that can taught me more than i used to know. so i decided to buy it every month. and i'm gonna share something, it could be anything, from every single edition. today i'm gonna share one thing, that, for me it's very useful. it's about taming your temper. i know a lot of people that have an anger problems. like they can't control their anger, so they do stuffs like fighting, smoking, drinking, etc. well, it's bad. and i'm wondering why they do that? okay, they want to wreak their anger, but that way? i'm telling you people, STUPID THINGS LIKE THAT ARE NOT THE ANSWER FOR ANY OF YOUR ANGER! when you realize something you've done, you'll regret it. what i'm trying to say here is, hey! there's lots of things you can do when you're in a bad mood, or even in a high temper. so, i'm gonna share you what i've got from reading 'Reader's Digest' this month.

EXERCISE - physical exertion can help for brief, short term anger. so, instead of drinking and fighting and other stupid stuff, why don't you exercise your body. besides, it's good for your health.
WRITE A LETTER - or a blog. when you can write almost anything that you wanna say. even though, you're not gonna send it to someone. trust me you won't.
COOL OFF - if you're out of control, you'll not confront the person straightaway. again, it'll not clear out the problems.
COMMUNICATE - sit down a bit, relax, buy a cup of coffee, thinking what are the problems, and you can talk to a person that is close to you. maybe they could help.
USE HUMOR - think about something very funny. that can make you laugh and forget about your anger for a bit. for me, it worked!
PROS AND CONS - think like this "is the anger achieving anything or is it just hurting me?"
PROBLEM-SOLVE - ask yourself, "is there anything i can do about this whole situation?
ACCEPTANCE - you have to know that somethings in this life just aren't fair enough for yourself. and we have to accept that, hey, it's all God's plan anyway.

so there it is. i hope this could work on those who have a very bad temper. but i have to tell you, it's all coming back to you all now. whether you want to change what you're thinking and do or you won't change a bit. i know it's hard to control your anger, but you have to try it first. like they said, "if there's a will, there's always a way."

give it a try! :)

"ams"

from this day and so on...until i don't know.

2009-10-26T07:26:00.003+07:00

i'll be pretty busy from now on. why? because my theatre preparation coming up and also my mid term exam is just a week left. maybe i'll not updated my blog for a long time, but just maybe. i don't know if i'm going to be like later on. but i told you before. it's gonna be pretty much busy. :)

pray for me will you?

oh, btw, i have a good news. daddy is gonna buy me NDS this wednesday. yippie!!! what can i say, it just need a little more patient to get what you want. :)

"ams"

ten, is a perfect score.

2009-10-25T10:28:00.006+07:00

HAPPY 10th MONTHS ANNIVERSARY FOR US!!!

"knowing you will be with me in all my tomorrows, makes my today so wonderful."

thank you for such an amazing journey this past 10th months. we had our tough time, sad time, happy time, but most of all, the most important thing is we've been together for all this time. and still, we'll embark on our journey holding hands to each other, wishing for the best and we'll shall receive the best thing ever.

i love you and that's that.

"most of all, IT'S BUILD TO LAST."

movie review - GHOST OF GIRLFRIENDS PAST.

2009-10-25T09:31:00.003+07:00

i think this movie will not being showed in my country. well, i don't know, but i'm pretty sure this movie is out on may 2009 in USA. so, i decided to bought the dvd instead of waiting for this to show in indonesia.

title: 'GHOST OF GIRLFRIENDS PAST'

directed by: mark waters.

casts: matthew mcconaughey, jennifer garner, michael douglas, etc.

review:

(not a spoiler)

Connor Mead, a successful photographer and a playboy goes to his younger brother's wedding, to convince him not to get marry. he arrives at his dead uncle's estate during the rehearsal wedding, and he met Jenny Perotti, his childhood friend. and then, he starts trashing out the wedding, later on in the men's room, his uncle, who taught him everything about women, appears to him as a ghost. and he confesses that he was wrong. his uncle told him that Connor will visited by three ghosts that night. the ghost of a girlfriends past, present and future. can he learn anything from his life and fix what he's broken? you have to saw it for yourself.

it is quite a boring story at the start, but once you find the story is catchy, and yet very romantic in the end, you'll not regret it. i never expected that a guy like Connor, can be a very romantic person after all. well, everyone have their own romantic side, but how they show it, that's the greatest part. :)

"ams"

let's talk about family.

2009-10-24T08:47:00.004+07:00

i must say, i never write anything about my family in here if i'm not mistaken right? let's see. yeah, i never do that. what a shame. but now, i presented to you all about my family. okay, so now, my family is my life, without them i'm no one, nobody, and i'm completely useless. i think it's the same with you guys right? who can replace your family for being number one. for me, there's nobody else besides my family. what can i say, family always comes first. :)

first of all, my daddy, man of the house. a man with his promise. i love my daddy, of course, and most of all what i respect him the most is all because he's started as someone that, well, i should say, poor family background. but now he's the most successful person in his family. and i'm proud of him. he can make his own company, buy all things that he wants, he now wears branded stuff and like that so, he's the person that i wanna be when i grow up. to be successful like daddy. :) also, i'm always be daddy's little girl. because i'm the youngest and not to be bigheaded but i always get what i want. but believe me, i'm not that type of person anymore. i realize how hard it is to make some money, and that's what i've learned from my daddy. i love you daddy, thank you for everything that you gave me. :*

second, my mom. the best thing ever! my shopping partner, hihi, she knows what i like, what i don't and what i really want. my mom went through hell a lot of things, she's a strong mom and a tough mom, she taught me everything about good manners and things. she loves to cook and she always makes the best breakfast for me. she still working even though she's too old for that, but she enjoy her job very much. i wanna be like her too. she's very appropriate in every way, she's a part of my life. and i love her very much. she's also my best friend in every way, she knows me better than anyone else. even though she have a high anger, but i know one thing that her anger is the way to make me even more better in person and in life. :)

last but not least, my big brother. the only brother i have in this family. and he's very kind to me, always protects me whenever i am, and believe me, i never fight with him, vice versa, he's the best brother i ever and only have! he taught me everything, but mostly drawing. he's the first person how to draws, until now, and i must admit it he's good at it. my brother loves soccer very much. my mom and dad gave his name is based on Brazilian soccer player in the 80's if i'm not mistaken. no wonder he's really good at it. i love you my brother. :)

my life is complete with them surrounding me each and every day. even though i only see them on morning or even night, and sometimes i miss spending my quality time with them. i want to spend my life time with them, as much as i spend my college time outside. you know, the amount of time from my college and assignment time is way too much compare it to my quality time with my family. gosh, it's sad.

but now i promise, i'll spend more and more time with them. if i can. but i'll make a time for them. therefore, they're my treasure of this life. :)

"ams"

is it because i'm the little one?

2009-10-22T18:48:00.003+07:00

i pick up my mom today at her office to go home together. and she took her friend with her, a really good friend of her in the office, and i know her since i was little. it's been such a long time since i last saw her, i don't know exactly but, yeah, it's pretty much a long time ago. but she still knew me very well, for example, we went to hong kong together, me, my mom, her and the others. we went on a tour. that brings up back memory when my mom's friend, let's call her aunt cory, told me that when we were in hong kong, she told me that my face looks different from what i looked like in my passport, (my passport's photo was taken when i was just a little girl. probably around 5 or 6, i don't remember) and she scared me by telling me that i cannot went to hong kong because of my picture. okay, way back then who wouldn't believe that? like, come on, you're 13 years old and you don't know nothing but to trust that. and i fell into that joke. and what really happened was i was hiding under my blanket because i was scared to meet the airport's guard.

and it happened again, when i went to europe. if i'm not mistaken is the border between germany and switzerland or is it germany and italy, i don't really remember that well. but anyway, i went to europe with my big family, there was my mom, brother, two aunts and three cousins. and i'm the smallest one.

so, if you're using a car to get into another country in europe, you have to show your passport at the border line between the two countries. for example, like when you're from germany and you ride a car to italy, when you reach the end of the line in germany there'll be a little station around five or seven stations that will ask you where you wanna go, what are you going to do, etc. stuffs like that. and again, we have to show us a passport, because if you travel abroad, your passport is your ID. at that time, i don't have my own passport, because my mom just made a new one and i'm still on the same passport with her.

back again to the story, my cousin, let's call him dax, he really loves to bullies me around. i don't know why but yeah, that happens, a lot! even until now. God knows what happens. well, again he told me the same thing like aunt cory told me. my face is different in the passport with my current face that time. at first i didn't believe in that, because i've been there, done that, but he convinced me that polices in europe are way meaner than in asia. so, yeah, once again, i hide under my blanket in the car trying to hide from the border police and suddenly all of my family are laughing so hard. even the police. *sigh*

trust me, it's the last time i'm doing that thing. now i have my own passport and even though my face isn't that good in the picture, i still have my looks on that passport. :)

so, yeah, i always getting bullies from anyone. if that makes them happy, well, i must say, it's alright. they'll get tired of it anyway, someday...i hope...

*it's raining!!!*

"ams"

Stephen Gately.

2009-10-21T19:09:00.003+07:00

i really didn't have any moods on writing something, so i'm going to have this post as a tribute to the late Stephen Gately (17 March 1976 - 10 October 2009, aged 33) former member of Boyzone, one of the greatest Irish band ever.

Born on 17th of March 1976, Stephen Patrick David Gately, he was the fourth out of five child and he was born in Dublin, Ireland. he grew up poor until he appeared in several musical for his school and also many theatre performance. in 1993 he joined the Irish boy band named Boyzone. and the song titled 'Love Me For a Reason' hits UK's chart number two on 1995. and from that on, Boyzone keep on rising and rising until the whole world know about them. and then on the year 2000, Boyzone performed together for the last time and it reached out 35.000 tickets sold and that was the biggest ever on that year.

on 2000, Stephen Gately made a solo debut. his first single titled 'New Beginning' was a hit! and his second single titled 'I Believe' also featured on the movie 'Billy Eliot' on 2000. he became one of the first pop stars that come out as gay. and he wed Andrew Cowles, on 2003 in Las Vegas.

for the sad news, Stephen was found dead on his apartment on Saturday, 10th of October 2009, on the Spanish Island of Majorca, the cause of the death is called pulmonary edema, to put it simple it's like you have fluids in your lungs. he was found dead on the sofa and was discovered by his husband Andrew Cowles.

my thoughts and prayer are for you Stephen. may he rest in peace. :)

firstly i know this news when i was with my brother and daddy to drop of my mother at her friend's house. when i checked my phone and updated my twitter status, i read the news on my phone and found out that he was passed away. i was shocked. from what i know, he seems fine to me. but hear this sad news makes me wanna hear all of Stephen's and Boyzone's songs back again. it's sad really, tragic death of one of the greatest members of Boyzone. i must say i LOVE his voice. he had an amazing voice.

one more person with an amazing voice had left us peeps! :(

"ams"

the show must go on!

2009-10-20T19:08:00.005+07:00

i just got back from my campus today, and believe me, i'm very exhausted! i mean, VERY!!! thanks to the hotness of jakarta, and the weather today. ugh! my head is dizzy right now, can't even think straight and to top that of, i still have my legal assignment. even though it's not gonna be submitted on this thursday, but why not i made that thing up so i can relax for a bit. and concentrate on my job as the property and stage assistant for my class's theatrical performance on february.

i even forgot what day is it right now? and also the date. hmmm.

so, a little about my class's theatrical performance. my class will portray an old chinese movie, called 'JOURNEY TO THE WEST'. it's practically about a monk named Tong Sam Cong, embark on a journey to search a scroll. and this monk is not alone, he's accompany by his 3 acquaintance (later, become his apprentice) named Go Kong (monkey), Pat Kay (pig) and Wu Cing (kappa) and a horse. and every character has their own background story, and also the reason why they have to go to the west is in the story.

i must say that, many of you knows about this movie. for me, i know this movie because i used to watch it on the television. even though i didn't quite remember all of the story, but the bottom line is, this movie is great. and it teach us how to be a better person. from what the monk said and teach. you should watch it. :)

and the best part is my bf is playing Pat Kay. hihi.

my part for this theatre is on the property and stage crew. and guess how many members there are on my side? only TWO! yeah!!! and both of us is a girl. but i'll do my best to my part. because i want this to be a successful and yet wonderful performance. let's gooo MC 11-2B!!! we can do it!

i better go doing my fcking assignment!

"ams"

movie review - INGLOURIOUS BASTERDS.

2009-10-19T20:44:00.006+07:00

i never quite catch a movie recently, i even forgot the last movie i watched. hmmm. i guess it's 'the ugly truth'. or else? oh well, moving on then. so, today i watched 'inglourious basterds' a movie by quentin tarantino the master of this kind of movie. and here's my review about that movie.

(brad pitt as Lt. Aldo Raine)

title: 'INGLOURIOUS BASTERDS' (they using 'inglourious' instead of 'inglorious' - the right spelling and of course, the 'basterds' too.)

directed by: quentin tarantino.

cast: brad pitt (who would refuse to watch this guy movies?!) and other casts that i'm not familiar with.

review:

(not a spoiler)

this film is taking place on paris, france on the year of NAZI's leading the france. it was Hitler, Goering, Gobbles and Bormann era. most of all in the movie, the year of the story was on 1944 if i'm not mistaken. so, this Lt. Aldo Raine (brad pitt) leads a group called 'inglourious basterds' where the group has one mission, is to kill all of the NAZI in france. as well as a girl named Shosanna, who is seeks for a revenge because her family is being killed by this NAZI Colonel that killed all the jewish people named Hans Landa. they both have the same mission and will it be a success? well, i'm not going to spoiled it over here. you have to watch it by yourself. this movie for me, maybe the best movie of 2009 so far. besides 'benjamin button' and others. but i have to admit it, brad pitt is the best person to portray Lt. Aldo Raine. this three hours movie didn't make me fell asleep, because of the story and the character on it. seriously guys, you'll not regret this movie. ever!

i want to watch it again if i can. :)

even though it's full of violence and cruelty, but that's what happens is the real era right? and this is a made up story anyway. and quentin tarantino made it. what else can you expect except that he always make a masterpiece! hands down!

so, i HIGHLY RECOMMENDED to watch it. with whoever it is, but don't forget to go to the bathroom before you watch it. :p three hours is long enough to hold back to your urine. haha.

"ams"

let's talk about birthday.

2009-10-18T10:24:00.004+07:00

from what i saw on my phone's calendar, this month and for the next month and the next month again, a lot of my friends' birthday are coming. yeay! and i'm very happy for them. for example, today is anthony stevven's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :) hihi. i wish you all the best my friend. so so so...back again...to the main topic.

i gotta ask you a question, what would you like to have on your birthday? confused ey? too many things that you totally want for your birthday, not being too hypocrite but i do want presents. even if i'm on my birthday or not. but what comes to my mind lately, for the past 2 years, every single birthday i had, i didn't expect anyone to gave me a present. i don't know why but yeah, that's what i thought.

you know, every year, for me, i didn't want anything from anybody. it's okay if they gave me, but what i'm thinking is i'm getting older one year, and i have to act what my age represent it to me right? i mean, you'll get older and older, and you still act like a child? pft! fuck with that. grow up will you? although i still, sometimes being this 'daddy's little girl' and things like that but i have my adult mind too.

i prefer christmas present than a birthday present for now. :)

but hey, this is only my thought, everyone has their own thought and other way of thinking. if you don't like it hey, deal with it, it's a free country we're living anyway.

"ams"

*happy birthday again, my dearest friend anthony stevven!*

yippi kay ey~ yippi kay ey~

2009-10-17T09:19:00.003+07:00

i've been busy lately, and not in the good mood for writing. but now i'm back. and i just took a bath and it feels so refreshing! :) what a great day to start with. besides it's saturday already, which means it's weekend ya'll! yeay! i always love weekend. hihi.

recently, i can't quite woke up late. it's like, i'm back to my old habit. for real, i'm not the type that can woke up pretty late, like at eleven or twelve o'clock in the middle of the day like that. usually i woke up at nine, or ten. maybe it depends on my sleeping hour ey? lately i've been sleeping at ten or ten thirty at night, never ever gonna sleep at twelve or more. i get sick so easily! and believe me, sickness is killing me! :(

oh! oh! oh! i got a happy newsss!!! :) :) :)

it happens that my media relation final test is all about blogging! and my lecture ask us to make a blog of our own, and guess what??? i already got one! yeay! so, i'm going to update it as much as i can. see, blogging is FUN! :D

well, that's all folks, i wish you all have the greatest weekend ever. and HAPPY WEEKEND!!! :)

*happy belated birthday for my best friend, nadine dhanniar. :)*

"ams"

consider it i'm done.

2009-10-15T20:47:00.003+07:00

not in the mood for writing...

yeah...

sleep would be nice at this time...so...

i think i call it a day!

"ams"

my current addiction to LENKA!

2009-10-14T15:12:00.005+07:00

sooooo, anybody knows what lenka is? well, lenka is basically my current music addiction. her name is LENKA KRIPAC. she was born in australia if i'm not mistaken, she's originally an australian and she's also an actress. even though i don't know much about her acting career. anyway, back again, lenka, well, i know her from her song called 'the show' and i like that kind of music genre. you know, pop and easy listening. for me, it's a great song for sleep. my current iTunes playlist is all about LENKA!!! :)

you should listen her songs. there's too many, but i have to recommend 'the show' and 'trouble is a friend' because those two are my favorite songs from lenka. you can check her music videos and other songs in here.

go buy her album!!! :) i'm pretty sure you'll not gonna regret it!

"ams"

sickness - one thing that i really hate.

2009-10-13T21:10:00.003+07:00

it's been quite a while since i updated my last blog. sorry, but i have to. i've been sick lately, for the past three days i guess, it's kinda sad really, first, i'm not able to drink cold water, only normal mineral water. second, i'm not allowed to eat something fried. ugh! yeah, so, sick is very VERY sucks! admit it.

so, this damn influenza come into me on saturday night, after i went to Bogor for some photography shooting, i blogged about that didn't i? :| well, at that night, i sneeze, a lot! and my throat is starting to feel weird because of the big sneeze i guess. at first i thought that sneeze is only an allergic to my new bed sheet. because it's never been used for a long time, but then, i woke up the morning after and finds out that i am sick, for sure. ugh. my nose is starting to feel weird, my throat can't stop coughing and i have to take a medicine, fast!

so, i took a medicine and fell asleep after that. when i woke up from my sleep, i feel much better. and i decided not to take another medicine. because i don't wanna addicted too much for that kind of medicine. it can be overdose too. so, yeah, medicine is scary enough for me. :p

monday, the worst day ever! my head is dizzy, my flu is getting worst and i just can't stop coughing. also, i lost my appetite. i feel like i wanna close my eyes and didn't open it until whenever i wanna open it. but i can't, i'm in the middle of my class, and i also have to get my medicine in the hospital and i have a radio to air on! :( yeah, that monday is suck!

finally on tuesday, i take a break from whatever my condition are. i cut class, i sleep long enough, i enjoy playing ps2 and watching all of the new dvds i bought and enjoying my mom's ham sandwich in the morning. life's perfect when you do that. and to top that off, my bf come this morning, gave me a kiss, and after class he came again and bring me food and then he hugs me till i'm sleeping. :)

i'm much better now, only, i need more rest again tonight. so, for those who pray for me, thank you a lot! it means a lot to me. :)

"ams"

photography.

2009-10-11T09:49:00.003+07:00

yesterday i went to Kebun Raya Bogor with friends to take some picture that we've been planning on. and it came true yesterday. it was tons of fun and i'd like to go hunting again with you guys. :)

so, photography, well, i love photography since my dad decided to bought me a pocket digital camera, and i'm pretty sure it's sony. but i forgot the type, but it's really good. i tried to make a good picture and it turned out pretty good i guess. from my sony camera to the real SLR camera. at first i chose canon 450D for my gear. but my dad have a better option. and he always loves nikon no matter what. so, my dad picks up nikon D80 for me. and he bought it for me after i had my first photography class at college.

i'm blind for sure for the first time i tried using my D80. i'm using automatic mode first, and the picture didn't do so well. i mean, hey! i'm a starter here! everyone starts with zero to do something awesome and big anyway. and so do i.

then i started my photography class, and i know more and more about photography. (and also, i actually know my bf on that class. even though he's in the same class with me all the time.) until now, yeah, i'm still way further the pro, but i'm proud of my works. i'll put here some other time.

well, that's about that. my new hobby, besides sleeping and eating. PHOTOGRAPHY!!! :)

better go have my lunch now,

"ams"

indonesian legal system.

2009-10-09T20:52:00.003+07:00

so, i've been doing this assignment, for my subject called 'indonesian legal system'. and i must say, i'm so interested in LAW! and i have a regret that i didn't take the law major for my college. ughh!!! i find it law is a very interesting subject to learn, you know, know more about what's happening in the past and learn something that actually useful for yourself. yeah, i love law! and i am so definitely gonna go for law as my master degree. yeah! :)

back to macro, well, yeah, law, i just finished doing my assignment for my law class, but im not finished yet. because in this chapter there's 6 par. i guess, and it's 20 pages or more, i guess it's more, because it's thick! huff.

what i want to say here is, from what i read and what i listened to my lecture today, indonesia has no new law. we use the old law from Netherlands and a little from japan. why is that? why can't we make our own law if they said we already have our 'independence day'. yeah, it's very confusing but shortly, why can't we make our own rule? because we're heading way further than those two countries. who already makes their own rules and most of all their law is NEW! not like ours, it's old and i think it's not affected much for this country.

seriously guys, we need to make one of our own.

we can't keep hiding on Netherlands and Japan shadow all the time, they moved on so why can't we? i say let's gooooo!!!

i'm done with 3 par. of the chapter, and i still have 2 more par. and i hope i can learn so much from this subject. i must say, it is the best subject on semester 5! :)

i love law.

"ams"

more about me. (from my astrology point of view.)

2009-10-08T19:02:00.004+07:00

after a chit chat and lots to talk about with my bf, i realized what kind of person i am. well, once my friend gave me this site, it's about astrology and hey, believe me, i'm not that type of people who believes in that kind of thing, like astrology, tarots, card reading, etc. but, what's wrong with looking on it right? besides, i can say it's all true. so, here's more about me. (from my astrology point of view.)

because i was born on the 13th of march, so that makes me a pisces. simply, the two fish.

Element of the Pisces zodiac sign: water.

Quality of the Pisces zodiac sign: mutable.

Colours of the Pisces zodiac sign: blue-green.

Gems of the Pisces zodiac sign: white diamond.
Metals of the Pisces zodiac sign: tin.

Best day of the week for Pisces zodiac sign: thursday.

opposite sign: virgo. it's so funny when i read this part, i immediately asked my bf what's his sign is. and guess what? he's a VIRGO for sure! :)

my positive traits are:

sensitivity, i don't get it why my sensitivity is my positive traits, but hey i guess it's very cool to have this.
psychic power, i totally don't understand it, i mean, psychic power? pft!
altruism sensitive, YES! I AM VERY good at altruism.
self-sacrificing, i'd rather saw everybody happy rather than they saw me miserable.
compassionate, yeah, this is so me.
imaginative, ah! my part that i really like. i like to imagine myself whatever wherever or whenever i wanna be.
a real dreamer, it's pretty much like me.
very optimistic, HELL YEAH!!! and i'm proud to be optimistic. what the hell worrying about things, hey, whatever will be, will be.

my negative traits are:

negative moods, i have to admit this one, and IT IS THE WORST PART of being me. i'm very moody!!! what i mean very is VERY!!! and i don't know all about it. it just happen to my life. and i know it's bad. but hey, accept me for what i am, and i'll appreciate you.
keeping bad company, well, i'm not sure i'm the kind of this person, but maybe i do this sometimes.
being a dreamer, what's the good and the bad thing about this traits is sometimes, i imagine something that is very bad to people. and i know i was wrong, but i kinda like that thought.
you often live in an illusion, yes, thanks to my 'dreamer' traits.
they do not believe that they are being cheated, till too late, nope! i don't do this kind of stuff. i always have a feeling when someone tells a lie to me. or what'll happen to people by looking at them.

so, yeah, that was that. now you know me better right? if you wanna see or try looking at this full page, you should go to this site. you can tell this is just a coincidence or not, but it's true i guess. try it here! once you enter the site, you just click what's your astrology sign on the top of the page. if you wanna know more about me you should click on the pisces symbol.

have fun knowing your self and others! :)

"ams"

愛のしるし。

2009-10-07T22:05:00.003+07:00

this song is dedicated to my lovely bf. this is currently, his favorite song!!! :) you can check this out by clicking this link. right here.

it's called "愛のしるし。" / "Ai no Shirushi by Hi Hi Puffy AmiYumi. one of my favorite japanese band. Ai no Shirushi is "Sign of Love" in english.

romaji lyrics.

with translation.

Yawana ha-to ga shibireru kokochi yoi hari no shigeki
Wake mo nai no ni kagayaku sore dake ga ai no shirushi

(A soft heart goes numb. Comfortable stimulus of the needs.
It shines without reason. That's the only sign of love)

Itsuka anata ni wa
Subete uchi akeyou
Sukoshi tsuyoku naru tame ni
Kowareta bo-to de hitori koide yuku

(Some day, I will open my mind to you. In order to become a little stronger.
I row a broken boat alone.)

Yume no naka demo wakaru mekuru meku yoru no fushigi

(I can tell even in my dreams about the dazzling mysterious night)

Tada no omoide to
Kaze ga sasayaite mo
Ureshi naki no takara mono
Nan demo ari souna kuni de tada hitotsu

(It's just a memory. Even it the wind whispers.
The treasure cry for joy. Only one in the country that seems to have it all.)

Yawana ha-to ga shibireru kokochi yoi hari no shigeki
Wake mo nai no ni kagayaku sore dake ga ai no shirushi
Sore dake de ai no shirushi

(A soft heart goes numb. Comfortable stimulus of the needs.
It shines without reason. That's the only sign of love.)

drum mania V4: Яock×Rock.

2009-10-07T21:23:00.003+07:00

recently i blew off my money for playing an arcade in PIM. usually i played in this place called 'fun world'. honestly i'm not the type of person that enjoys arcade like that very much. but i always willing to play this game called 'drum mania'. i once saw a bunch of teenage kids playing it. and they're so great. and i saw my other friend who played that thing too. i said on my mind that someday, when i have guts, i wanna try that machine. and then guess what? I'M ADDICTED TO THAT!!! :)

so, yeah, recently i blew off my money for playing drum mania. it's fun and very enjoyable thing to do. first of all you'll get all dizzy out by looking at the small color lines, but, once you hear the rhythm and the beat, it makes you wanna do more and more. and once you failed a stage, it makes me NOT sad, but it makes me wanna do a lot better than what i did before. and yeah, it's very enjoyable.

i wish for that machine someday, maybe you wanna buy me one? for a birthday present? or just for a gift? i'll thank you for the rest of my life! :p (i'm just kidding guys, but IF you really want to give me that, i'll appreciate it.)

so, any chance for me to get it? well, maybe later! :)

btw, jakarta is cold these days, i think it's already rainy season. can You make it to snowy season my dear Lord? i want that very much. :p

"ams"

faith.

2009-10-06T21:21:00.005+07:00

you know one thing that i'd normally do for my life is praying. i'm sure you guys do that too. but what i mean here is, i pray for every occasion that i am in. that i'm in it. every single second if i can. i'm not being too big about this praying thing but yeah, hey, look at this. how many second, minutes even hour for you to watch tv, online, college, sleeping, etc. ? compare that to how long have you've been praying for today? come on, it's like 1:10 i guess. because that was me, before i know my God does exist in this world.

lately, there's been some kind of weird news and fake news or even a made-up story that made a hell a scare out of me. but for some reason, i can't trust that damn news. the news was all about the earthquake, because recently there have been too many accident that cause indonesia to panic attack. i must say, in twitter, earthquake is the main topic EVERYDAY!

the point is, what i'm trying to tell you guys about all of this is, hey! you're not GOD! you can predict that to happen, but what comes around goes around. and if you're scared with that stupid news than you must be an atheist. for me, i believe in God, and i'm not afraid. if He wants to take me away then He'll do it. but if not, then He still gave me life to move on and to live on. just trust Him and let Him lead our way. because there's nothing compare to Him.

HAVE FAITH IN GOD.

so, yeah, ya'll get the point right? whatever the news is whatever the condition is have faith in Him. because our life and death is based upon Him. pray every time, every single day. and He'll give you the greatest gift ever.

okay, not to sound so priest or anything but yeah, that was my thought on this starry night. it's cold outside, and i'm turning off my air conditioner. gotta change to my pajamas soon because my leg is cold. so i guess i'll see you guys later.

*i wish jakarta is snowing!*

"ams"

thoughts after church.

2009-10-04T21:05:00.005+07:00

so, yeah, as i told you lately, i went to the church. and i just got back from this place called 'toys cafe' which sells food and of course serve game consoles like ps2, xbox, wii and board games. it's a great place to hang out, besides the place is full of cigarettes despite the place is full of air conditioner. but aside of that, toys cafe is great!!!

well, back to macro. church. what i get and what i learn from what my priest said today is all about family.

from ephesians 5:22-33.

Exhortations to Households

5:22 Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord, 5:23 because the husband is the head of the wife as also Christ is the head of the church – he himself being the savior of the body. 5:24 But as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything. 5:25 Husbands, love your wives just as Christ loved the church and gave himself for her 5:26 to sanctify her by cleansing her with the washing of the water by the word, 5:27 so that he may present the church to himself as glorious – not having a stain or wrinkle, or any such blemish, but holy and blameless. 5:28 In the same way husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. 5:29 For no one has ever hated his own body but he feeds it and takes care of it, just as Christ also does the church, 5:30 for we are members of his body. 5:31 For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and will be joined to his wife, and the two will become one flesh. 5:32 This mystery is great – but I am actually speaking with reference to Christ and the church. 5:33 Nevertheless, each one of you must also love his own wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband. (http://bible.org/netbible/index.htm)

i already read this part like a thousand times. and i still love it! it's like what you've searched about 'family' is fully explained by this part.

love your family, husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend, brother, sister, cousins, everyone that you love. don't ever let them go away from you, because for me, family is my greatest treasure EVER!!! i love my family, and thank God for my dad, mom and brother. i love them so much as much as they love me. thank you. :)

"ams"

electricity fails.

2009-10-04T15:54:00.003+07:00

okay so, here's the thing. first of all i'd like to thank God for electricity. because without it, this world will be very dark. second, i'd like to thank PLN (the company that serves electricity in my country.) for the electricity. but you know what, even if there's an electricity, there's a fail out of it.

lately, jakarta's PLN (or other city too, idk.) shuts the electricity down. i don't know exactly why, but i don't expect this thing to be everyday. because it's hot in jakarta and without the air conditioner it'll be hotter than ever!!! :(

at 3:00 pm, the light is down. i don't know if your place was shut or not but my place is down, and so did my bf's house. coincidence? yeah right. so, we chat on the phone because we had nothing interesting to do when the light shuts down. we talked about things, about almost anything that we can talk about. and what's funny and yet, romantic is, he made an imaginary story about us. things like romantic thing that i hope he'll do it to me. oh gosh, that'll be nice. :)

ok, back to electricity. hmmmm. so, my bf told me on the phone that this electricity shutting will be last for one month! oh God. i just wish this thing will be over soon. and i hope they'll shuts the electricity down when i'm in my campus. haha. so there'll be no class. :D

i'll be going to the church soon. i hope i'll get something today. :)

"ams"

things are not very good lately.

2009-10-04T12:57:00.004+07:00

finally, the rain has stopped! it's warm and breezy right now. i like the weather this way. it's better than the hot summer weather. this kind of weather is good for relaxing, or even sleeping. without air conditioner, yeah, that'll be nice. on my current playlist is from the fray, it's a great song to relaxing my head up from this current situation of mine.

can everybody just be happy? just like snapping your finger out like that? what's wrong with my life lately. it's been pretty hard lately i know. things aren't going out very well for me. life is pretty much sucks.

from college, yeah, my assignment is growing faster! and that's mean LOTS OF ASSIGNMENT!!! and then this theatre coming out soon in december. oh God. i can imagine what is like being on that month! it'll be pretty messed up i'm sure.

sounds pathetic am i? yeah, i am. for now. i just can't think straight! optimist? for now, IT'S WAY OUT! it's like paramore's song called "For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic". it's me right now. it's like i'm falling WAY DOWN LOW! and i can't find something to cheer me up, to lift me back up, and that's why i will go to the church, to get something i hope.

not to mention the assignment for tomorrow, oh God! i need an island getaway!!!

"ams"

a thoughts on a rainy day.

2009-10-04T11:03:00.003+07:00

it's raining outside, and it's heavy! just like yesterday when i left bogor in the highway. the rain is so big i can't almost saw a thing! good thing we arrived safely in jakarta. oh God, look at this heavy rain! it's like Jesus is crying. it's so big!

well, i like rain, but depends actually. for me rainy day is a romantic day. you know, i'm being fantasied here but hey, i am a daydreamer. okay, start with this not too big house but not too little house in the mountain high, hmm, i'd like in alpine. that'll be great right??? well, carry on then, sooo, there was me and him (whoever it is, i was hoping my bf), in the terrace yard, sitting in the small bench, together, he was hugging me and i'm on his leap of shoulder. okay it's staring to get romantic here. hmmmm. and then it was rain, small rain will be enough, and then i made hot chocolate for two. and then, bossa musics start to play on the back. yeah, there it is, my perfect story. and i hope it'll became true. i just pray to God.

okay, the rain is finally cooling down. it's starting to slowing down. and i hope that it is. please, no more heavy rain my dear God. pretty please!!! :)

i love you rain, but not this big! okay?!

blog to you all later! :)

"ams"

thoughts before i sleep.

2009-10-03T23:41:00.004+07:00

i've been kinda weird lately, my emotion runs high, my mood become ups and downs, the atmosphere is bad, dark and all blur out, i'm miserable lately. in fact, i don't know exactly who i am.

have you ever feels like there's two you in your body? or in your life?

for me, yeah, i am. and i know that. it's like, one side of me is the 'angel' me and the other side of me is the 'devil' me. sometimes, depends on my current mood and situation, i can get the 'angel' side of me go out but sometimes when i'm feeling all hazel out it's the 'devil' me that controls me. i think i need something new, something inspiring for me. well it's for me and for others too i think. i don't want to have 2 sides of me in one body. sometimes when i'm in the middle of 'angel' and 'devil' my head is all dizzy. i want to scream that thing out loud and yet, i can't that i cries.

i'm the type of person that easily cries, but i tend to hold up my tears so it wont come out. and turned out to be i can't control my breath. my heart is totally hurt and i can't breath sometimes. from what i've learn, i have to get that thing going on out. or there'll be something really hurt happens to your body. for me, i get sick. my body temperature will rise up and i'll be down. deep down. and nobody can't leave me back up again.

life is hard, but we must face it no matter what. because this is what God plans us to be, this is what He wants us to living. i thank God for everything that He gave me everyday, i seek for help to Him, i beg for mercy for Him. that's why even though i complained about my life, He'll be there for me. thank God for Your existence. :)

i tried to change my life, i am one person with a high level of egoism. yeah i do. and i'd like to change that. i know i can, i need supports, but i have to have a will on my mind. if not, there'll be no result for that. i hope i can. hey, like they said, "IF THERE'S A WILL, THERE'S A WAY." and of course, i will be! i know i can!!!

well, there it is, my life recently. i guess i have to buy this book called, "THE RULES OF LIFE." by richard templar if i'm not wrong. yeah, i need that. and i'll tell all about that book later. i'll do some review in here.

"ams"

jimmy needham - firefly.

2009-10-02T22:37:00.004+07:00

my current favorite song. you can check out his song and video in here.

jimmy needham - firefly.

It’s tulips and it’s daisies
Your favorite flowers lately
You think that I ain’t listening, but you know I do
With your two lips on me baby
My head starts getting dazey
Don’t give me a flower
What I want is you

It happened on the day you put your hand in mine
You went up to my head just like a glass of wine
Girl, you spark my attention like a firefly
And make me happy to be alive

You move into a room like
Summer breeze at noon time
Baby, out of nine, I’d give you ten
Your love is like an ocean
Surf and spray in motion
Baby, I’m a diver and I love to swim

It happened on the day you put your hand in mine
You went up to my head just like a glass of wine
Girl, you spark my attention like a firefly
And make me happy to be alive

These are just simple words of mine
And though most of what I feel is hard to rhyme
Ain’t it good to know your boy gave it a try?
O a try
It’d take a thousand colors just to paint your eyes
Like saving grace, they raise me up to paradise
This ain’t opinion, it’s consensus from my heart and mind
You make me happy to be alive

boys will always be boys.

2009-10-02T22:07:00.003+07:00

hey, how's it goin'? fine? good for you then. i'm not so in the good mood today. my head is dizzy, my stomach is hurt, i don't know where the hell is my bf is. ughh!!! bad mood!

well, i've been wanting to talk about boys behavior in here, because from what i see, heard and knew, boys will always be boys. so, here's the thing, these are my thoughts about man. or boys if you prefer that.

1. they'll stay longer spending time with their mates than us.

yeah, that's happen. and i don't know what they're talking about and i don't care either. but, yeah, there it is. if! us (girls) go out with our friends, they'll texts and calls us like bazillion times than us! don't believe it? well, it does happen! a LOT!

2. when they say, "just a minute" they meant three to five hours later.

again, don't believe it? well, you should. from what i've experienced before, my bf tend to said, "i'll be back in just a minute, i'll not going for a long time, just a sec, etc." and you know when will they get back? THREE TO FIVE HOURS LATER!!! approximately. well, tips from me to you guys, DON'T SAY IT IF YOU'RE NOT MEAN IT! FOR REAL!

3. once a liar ALWAYS be a liar.

there's no need for me to explain this. we all know that boys DO lie! no matter how nice they are, how lovely they are, but they are all a big LIAR! never ever trust them 100%, or even 30%! trust me, guarantee!

truthfully, there's lots more than this if you wanna talk about guys. but hey, nobody's perfect. we all make mistakes. but these three things are what i hate the most about guys. like they all said, boys will always be boys.

gotta go now, i'm not in a very good mood anyway. things will be just fine, i hope. :|

"ams"

a little memory back to december 2008.

2009-10-01T00:12:00.006+07:00

so, i manage to finished my assignment in time. thank God for that. and now my hand is all shaky and weird. but it's alright. :)

i can't believe that tomorrow is already OCTOBER! seems just like yesterday i celebrated new year. and now it's OCTOBER ALREADY? gosh. time sure is money. i feel old. :( well, if october is here, than there'll be november soon, oh! and DECEMBER! my favorite month ever! you know, it's all about christmas, christmas and more christmas. :) it's sure is the time to be jolly! and i can't wait till christmas come. please come early my dear CHRISTMAS! :)

talking about christmas, that happens on the 25th of december every year, i got another reason why i love christmas. yeah it's because i finally have a boyfriend on that day. now it's been 9th month since we both sailing on this relationship. it's been quite a mess and fun at the same time. we have fights, laughs, tears, almost everything that every couple should have. and that's what makes us stronger each day. well, communication DOES work!

i wanna tell you about him for a bit. his name is IRVAN SETIAWAN. we met in class on semester 3. at first i don't know if he's existed in class, because he always sit in the back. and i was sitting in the front. i already have someone that i like back then. (nah, i don't wanna talk about him, it's sad!) and after i broke up with my previous one, i remember on the 22nd of october 2008, i get to know him better. and from that time, until now we still live on as a happy couple! :)

he's quite a nice person, great personality, kind and cute. hihi. i like cute guys! :p anyway, he's not attractive but i like him, he's not tall and skinny but i love him, he's not perfect and i still loves him very much! there's this thing that i read in the internet, tells me that he's the type of guy that will suits my life trough tick and thin. and we'll completed each other. it's like God created me to be with him. well, i don't believe on that site 100%, but i believe in God. everyday i pray for our relationship to last longer and believe in everything that God will gave me.

i love him even though he's not perfect! and that's that! and i hope we'll be together in God's will. amen! :)

gotta go to sleep. my eyes and hands are killing me!

catch ya' later blogs! :*

"ams"

long time no see mates!!!

2009-09-30T23:31:00.003+07:00

helllllooooooooooo world!!! how are you guys been doin'? it's been such a long time since i wrote in here. i guess it's been a month or two, or even three? oh well. i'm back! :) yeah, i've been pretty much busy these days. but still, i'm just an ordinary college student that will do simply anything to graduate me from college. although, i love college and its life. and i have lots of friend too! yeah, college is totally awesome!

so, lately i've been doing great for this whole new semester. i'm in semester 5 now, only three semester more and i'll be out of my weird campus. maybe i'll go abroad to continue my study. my dad told me to. well, i kinda want it, but i don't wanna die old in studying! ugh. that'll be so pathetic. but hey, we'll see it later.

i'm in the middle of doing my legal system assignment. and it's kinda suck! they have this technology called COMPUTER to type and possibly helps us to do our assignment more easy and it's very useful. and now my lecture gave this very old fashion assignment called SUMMARIZED. in PAPER! WRITING! NOT TYPING! ughhh. it's my last par. but i still have lots and lots of chapter to go through. my God i hate summarizing! :(

i guess i better continue my summary, it's driving me nuts already!

blog to you all later! :)

"ams"