yeah, it's you i'm talking about.

anger.

this is not supposed to be my job, because this is not my part of the theatre.

screw you guys!

eleven, soccer team.

'cause the spaces between my fingers

are right where yours fit perfectly'

HAPPY ELEVENTH MONTHS TO US MY DEAREST

IRVAN SETIAWAN!!!

i hope everything happens between us is a gift from God, that we have to face it, no matter what the situations are, the consequences are and the troubles are in our life, let that thing be something that can make us stronger as a couple.

one more month to our anniversary, i hope we can make it through and again, build to last.

'it's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life.'

"ams"

quick updates.

it's such a long time since i didn't made an update. firstly because, blogger was banned in indonesia for, well i don't know exactly how long, but every time i opened it, it can't. i don't know why at first, but this morning i heard the news that blogger was banned because of someone in indonesia made a bad blog. i don't know what it is all about to be exact but, the stupid thing is, this 'someone' that made a bad blog used wordpress not blogger. and why was blogger the one that being banned? how stupid it was. i don't know anything about wordpress because i'm not using it. so, yeah, it was a stupid thing.

so, on the 23rd of november, err...it's monday if i'm not mistaken, i went to jakarta's so called 'china town' located in glodok. it is quite a place, since i've never been there. i went because i had to do my job as the property crew. to search for some props for the theatre. and yes, i'm still on my theatre thingy. i hope you're not bored with that. because i'm not. i get used to it though. :p

the place is quite unique for me, it's a great place to take a picture, but unfortunately i'm not taking any. but i'll go back there i guess. i'm not done with my props yet. still, there's too many things that i need to buy from that place. and the foods seems nice too. and delicious. ugh! i wanna go back and have something to eat there. :)

oh! my mid exam test results are coming out. but it turned out to be not so great. i'm afraid my grades will be dropping down. i'm not gonna let that happen. i'll do my best to have a good score. i promise myself to have at least, one A. or two. and i hope i can do it. well, i must do it anyway. good luck for me. :)

for the last updates, CHRISTMAS IS NEAR!!! and i'm very excited about it. i've done my first christmas' shopping spree. and i'm willing to go to the next. my mom wanna buy a new christmas tree, but she still confused what color should she chose. i'm thinking a little snowy blue will be nice right? or whatever the color is, as long as i have a brand new christmas tree. i can feel the christmas spirit in me. also, on the first christmas' shopping spree, i bought david archuleta's christmas album. and it's so great!!! and it is my current playlist on my car. :)

only a month left before christmas, and i can't wait to celebrate it!!! :)

"ams"

tips to prevent the 'monday blues'.

so, here's what i've got from this month's readers digest. tips on how to prevent your monday blues. you know, everyone seems to hate waking up early in the monday morning. well, i do too. sleeping is the only thing i love the most at a time like this. plus, when it's raining in the morning, oh God, that is for me is what i called PERFECT LIFE! it's hard enough to open up your eyes, but it's even hard for me to face the truth that i'll go to a class on monday morning. it sucks, i know.

but i read this great article from readers digest and maybe i will try it on monday. or even tomorrow morning. oh well, we'll see it then.

BEAT THE SLEEPING HABBIT.

• avoid the weekend 'recovery' - we should sleep eight hour a day, no more and no less. it's enough for you to sleep in one day. if you sleep like more than eight hours, the water on your body will not stand it. and we'll get dizzy. trust me, it is dizzy.
• set a sleep-in limit - if you can, go to bed earlier on saturday night. automatically, on sunday you'll sleep early too.
• get out into the sun - even if you're late to bed, get up within an hour past your weekday rise time. the morning sun will resets your body clock and your sleeping time will be back on track.

so, there it is, i hope it work. i never tried it though, but i'm sure i will, tomorrow. i guess. :)

well, good luck on trying that one!

"ams"

last flight out - plus one.

I'm so scared that you will see

All the weakness inside of me

I'm so scared of letting go

That the pain I've hid will show

I know you want to hear me speak

But I'm afraid that if I start to

I'll never stop

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

I'm afraid that

You will leave

As my secrets

Have been revealed

In my dreams

You'll always stay

Every breathing moment from now

I know you want to hear me speak

But I'm afraid that if I start to

I'll never stop

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

I cannot hold back

The truth no more

I let you wait too long

Although it's hard and scares me so

A life without you scares me more

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

i want to leave it blank, because i don't know what to say.

so, theatre, again. somehow, i was thinking that i'll change this blog into something that dedicates to my life in the theatre. because from what i've seen, mostly, most of my blog posts are all about theatre, theatre and moreee theatre. i'm pretty sure all of you who read it getting pretty bored huh? well, yeah, me too. after all, i'm the one whose doing it right?

updates on today's practice. everyone did a very great job today, and i'm sure we'll give the best from what we have practicing. we have a great coach and mentor too, and also the casts are great! and they have their own different character to show everybody. i'm so proud of my class. and i'll pray for my class, every single day. :)

tomorrow, i'll be heading to this TV station to gain some money for my theatre. i hope it went well, all we have to do is sit and wait until the show is over. and i hope it's only for an hour.

i'm tired, adn very sleepy. i should get a rest now.

"ams"

a thoughts on a rainy day. part 2.

as you can see in the title, yeah, it's raining. it's cold and breezy, it's a great weather though, i always love rainy day like this. but not too big either. what i feel is, rain is romantic, i said that i guess in my part 1 blog about rain.

you know, the part i love the most is when it's a rainy day, you made yourself a cup of hot chocolate with marshmallow on top of that, and you sit on your rocking chair and wear one of your comfy blanket on and then you're starting to smell the rain and the ground at the same time. i don't know what it called, but i always love the smell of the rain. :) it makes me feel warm and calm.

there's one time, when i'm in swiss for a vacation with my family. and as you know, it's cold and it's raining. i stayed at almost on one of the highest house in swiss and it's cold as hell! but the good thing is, my mom made me a hot choco with marshmallow on. and that was why i love the rainy day. romantic isn't it, if i could then i would wanna do it again. with my bf maybe? hihi.

it's getting bigger outside, but i love it anyway. :)

"ams"

it's starting. i guess.

my mid term gonna end tomorrow, and that doesn't mean that i'll be free like a bird or something. hell no! what i have to face next is THEATRE!!! never get tired of saying that word. i have guard my health, i don't wanna get sick or anything. and i'll be coming home pretty late from now on, so...

"my dear God, i pray to You to protect me and all of my friends in this theatre. we hope for the very best and we will give the very best to all of the audience and most of all to You. i hope we'll pass this theatre with something to learn, something that made us better day by day, and most of all, it'll make us much closer than before. because from all i know is, this is the last thing we'll do together as one class. so, keep your health up and good luck for all of us. in the name of Jesus Christ i said my prayer, for me and of course, for my dearest friends. AMEN!!!"

i never prayed on my blog before, and i just did. :)

so, GOOD LUCK THEATRE GROUP 1!!! JOURNEY TO THE WEST!!!

"ams"

are back stabbers the same with hypocrites person?

for me, nah! they're not the same. from what i know is one person, take me for example, could have those two types of person. i could be like that. but that will be very rude. okay, here's the thing. i'm not that rude as a human being. i don't want to hurt anyone, any person anybody. i'm trying to make everyone around me feel happy. but like they said, 'NICE PEOPLE OFTEN GETS HURT' and i'm not saying that i'm the nicest person in this world, but a lot of people keep telling me that, i'm a nice person. even my bf said that for a human being, i'm too soft to be rude. well, that's who i am. i can't be mad to other people if they made a mistake, or IF they made a mistake i'll forget it. come on, nobody's perfect. and you know it's true.

so, about back stabbers. the person who stabs you from your back. like talking about you, mean things about you, negative things about you, well, i've been in that very situation. it was in my high school year, grade 12, when my school made a school sport event. and i'm the head of the food and beverage team. i stay all day in the f&b station for a week, i'm doing my job the right way, and i didn't leave my station at all (except for going to the toilet). but what did my friend said? one of my friend said that i'm not doing my job properly. she said i leave the station all the time and i didn't take care of the f&b seriously. i was like, confused at first, but after i know who's behind this nonsense situation, i realized, what's the used of doing like that? back stabber thing. what i had in my mind that day is just forget it, she don't know what she's doing to me. for me, i'm doing my own way. i did what i did best, and that's that. and the result? well, the next day, this girl that back stabbed me went home earlier, crying, because of what? well, you don't want to know. :p

and then we have, hypocrite. well, it's the same. but i have to admit it, we all human being are hypocrite. right? who wouldn't? again, we aren't perfect in every way, we all made mistakes. hypocrite is cruel. to make it simple, hypocrite is something you do when you're avoiding something but you really aren't avoiding that thing. get it? it's like for example, you like someone, but when your friend told you that he/she like him/her too and your friend ask you if you like him/her and you said NO. then you're a hypocrite. i'm sure you get it by now. if not, well, search it in the internet. :p

i usually find things like back stabber and hypocrite in friendship. you know, when you like someone and that person is your friend's bf/gf and you didn't care about that and you keep doing it, you keep pushing yourself to be with him/her. OR! even when you like your best friend's ex. ugh God! GET A LIFE MAN! it's weird you know, hear things like that. but what can we do? there's no such thing is a best friend that acts like a true best friend anyway. and i have to tell you this, DON'T YOU EVER TRUST A PERSON 100%. because when he/she lied to you, it hurts so much. and i know it, very much.

what you can do now is just realized, how imperfect we are in this world. and no one will be as perfect as our God.

"ams"

what i think of my life recently.

it's been pretty tiring lately. campus stuffs, mid term exams, assignments, more and more assignments. it seems like it will never gonna end soon. and i'm getting tired. but hell! i mustn't complaining, this is what i chose and i must do it. so, i'm spinning my head round and round and found out things that for me, i just realize it in my life. and it's all about time.

yesterday, i went to my campus to do my assignment and of course, theatre. when we went home, (there's me, my bf and my friend come along) we talked about how much time did we spend outside and inside our house. well, that surely made me think. and that's right, i've never been thinking that much. and i just realized that i spend my 24 hours mostly outside my house. so, to make it simple, here's the details:

• i woke up at six o'clock every monday to friday. (mostly)
• my class ends up at twelve o'clock every monday to friday.
• if i don't have anything to do, i went to the mall to get some lunch or watch a movie or do stuffs like that.
• if i'm very sleepy, i'll go straight back home.
• recently, i have my theatre thing, and it makes my time outside more and more longer than before.
• if i have my theatre thing, i'll be home late. very late i presume.
• the only day that i could lay my head on the pillow for a long time is on sunday

so, pathetic ey? yeah, i know. if i count all the hours and minutes, it will be like this. from monday to saturday i'll be at home for approx. 10 hours maximum. 8 hours minimum. and outside home, it will be 14 hours a day maximum, or could be minimum. :(

you know what i'm thinking? it's like, i have a home, home sweet home, but it's not the place that i'll stay for a long time. one thing that i surely do at home is sleeping.

i have a house, but i don't feel like i'm using it properly. (well, not my house, my parents' house. but i stay there for a very long time now.)

"ams"

vanilla twilight - owl city.

The stars lean down to kiss you

And I lie awake and miss you

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly

But I'll miss your arms around me

I'd send a postcard to you dear

'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue

But it's not the same without you

Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad

Till I look at my hands and feel sad

'Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways

Though I haven't slept in two days

'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight

I'll sit on the front porch all night

Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you

I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink

I'll think of you tonight

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter

And heavy wings grow lighter

I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew

But I swear I won't forget you

Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past

I'll whisper in your ear

Oh, darling, I wish you were here

my current addiction to OWL CITY!

at first, i don't know anything about this band called 'owl city'. but after my brother downloaded it on my laptop, and i listen to his song called 'fireflies' and i think, this is great. the music is different, he has a unique voice, and he has the style that for me, new. it's like listening to that kind of pop beat type of song. but, the songs' lyrics are superb! i'm amazed with his music. it's different and new. and i love it!

you can check out his myspace account in here. click click.

be sure to hear his songs, i must say, it's the best, for his genre. hands down. :)

"ams"

movie review - THIS IS IT.

three words, KING OF POP! michael jackson was an amazing person, also very inspiring. he inspired all the dancers around the world. who didn't know about him? and we all know that he already passed away on the 25th of june 2009, but he surely still lives among us. as an entertainer in this world.

at first, he made an announcement that he will have a concert in london on june, if i'm not mistaken, or july, i don't remember anyway, but, he passed away and this movie is all about the rehearsal that he was doing before the concert. this is the preparation that caught on camera, thanks to all the camera crew, they can bring us into the stage (when i saw this movie, i felt like i'm in the audience) we could feel how great he was. and the most important thing is, he was 50 years old when he rehearsed. but he surely know how to did the right moves. i think this is a present from him, his last performance for all of us, well, THIS IS IT.

i really don't know what to reviewed, because this is a documentary movie and you have to watch it if you want it. but i recommended this movie, if you like michael jackson. and until now, i still can't believe he's gone forever.

long live the KING OF POP.

RIP MICHAEL JOSEPH JACKSON (29 AUGUST 1958 - 25 JUNE 2009)

"ams"

christmas please come early. :)

i'm sure you all notice that i already change my songs on this page into christmas' songs right? well it is. and i'm pretty sure too, that you all know that christmas is coming real soon. hey, it's november already. and december will be up in like a month. i'm getting very excited here! :) so, here's the thing, i wanna buy a new christmas tree, because i don't know where my mom put the old one. so, i decided to buy one. and i'll decorate it and make my house full of christmas' ornaments.

in my family, we always celebrate christmas on the 24th of december, on the christmas eve to be exact. why? well, because we all have to go to the church first, and then we'll gather at my cousin home to celebrate until the 25th. and i have to say, christmas is the best thing ever! i always love christmas. but it's a shame i'm not living in a place that can actually snowing. ugh! but thank God i already felt it. white christmas. oh my God, it's so romantic. :)

please christmas, come early!!! :)

"ams"

movie review - BANLIEUE 13 ULTIMATUM/DISTRICT 13 ULTIMATUM.

at first, i wanna watch 'this is it', michael jackson's movie, but, after a long thinking and i have to move from one mall to another, so me and my bf decided to watch this movie called 'district 13 ultimatum' (D13 U). the film is notable for its depiction of 'parkour' in a number of stunt sequences that were completed without the use of w

ires or computer effects. it's a french movie and if somehow you realize, or even had watch this movie, yes, it is the sequel of the 'district 13' movie. but i never watch the first sequel, so, it's a little bit confusing at first, but after you watch it carefully, you'll know the story.

title: 'BANLIEUE 13 ULTIMATUM/DISTRICT 13 ULTIMATUM'

directed by: patrick alessandrin.

casts: cyril raffaelli as damien tomaso, david belle as leito and other casts.

review:

(not a spoiler)

it happens in 2013, in france, district 13, they call it B13 in the movie. in B13 lives several race of people in there. for example, the chinese, moslem, negro, etc. and they lived under they own race. earlier,

3 years ago, the government made a promise to fix B13 into more 'human' to live on. but, whatreally happens is it never came true. and for worst, B13 is going to be demolished by the government. so, to save the B13, leito and damien have to do something about it. see what happens

for yourself.

it is a great movie, again, it doesn't matter whether you watch the first movie or not. but i must

tell you, look out for the first scene, at the beginning of this movie. and then, enjoy the show! :)

"ams"

what should i say and pray?

i can't believe it's november already. time flew so fast ey mate? i just woke up and i reach for my phone and check out the calender, hey! it's november! october ends up quicker than i expected. one thing for sure, it's getting closer and closer to december! christmas!!! yeay! i have decided to buy a new tree, and decorate it in my house, i'll turn my living room into a room full of christmas' ornaments. :) oh my God, i get so excited really!!!

but not so fast! i still have my mid term exam and of course, theatre. i never bored by saying that, theatre. theatre. theatre. oh well, back again, i have my assignment too for the theatre thing, drawing and then actually make the properties, yeah, my life recently, i would say pathetic, much. maybe i don't have time with other people except my college friends, but i'll make some time. i only get a full day of rest at sunday, and i have to to church, make properties again, etc. oh God! this is getting pretty much tiring. but i'm sure i can cope with that.

so, my schedule for two weeks are out, so yeah, i hope i can do it without getting sick or anything. i have to keep up my body in a good shape and health. i don't wanna get sick, who does anyway? :p

i wish everyone a happy sunday and God bless you all. :)

"ams"