movie review - LAW ABIDING CITIZEN.

if i said earlier, i've never watch a movie recently, for this holiday i spent my days watching movies. almost every movie i saw. including this one, for me, it's the greatest unexpected movie i've ever seen. it's called, "LAW ABIDING CITIZEN". great movie, with a great casts to play. so, here's my review for the movie.

title: LAW ABIDING CITIZEN.

directed by: f. gary grey.

casts: jamie foxx as nick rice, gerard butler as clyde shelton, etc.

review:

(not a spoiler)

clyde (played by butler), lost his wife and daughter at a very tragic accident. his wife and daughter was murdered by two guys named arnes and darby. while ten years later, nick, the genius engineer made a revenge, but he don't like to be called as 'revenge' to his wife and daughter's death. while, nick, put him away on the jail and make him confess what clyde have done. but aside of that, clyde threaten nick, and make deals between both of them. if nick doesn't clear the deal, then something bad is gonna happen. and that what this movie all about. what can really happen if nick didn't obey him? and how can clyde blew up cars when he's in jail? you have to see it for yourself.

for me, it's a great movie, not a boring movie and of course, recommended much! i wanna watch it again if i can. maybe this is the last movie i saw in 2009. maybe. or, maybe tomorrow sherlock holmes will be out. well, we'll find out about that later.

"ams"

i wish christmas is everyday.

did you guys have a wonderful christmas day? for me, yeah! i got my wish on christmas and i get to spent my days with my family and my bf outside town. so, it's a very brand new atmosphere for me and it's a whole new tradition i guess. we've never done this before. :)

now that christmas is a year ahead, i wish for it to come sooner or later. because i love the christmas day. as i said before, it is my favorite day ever. and then i'm thinking of making my day everyday christmas day. but i can't. ha! well, the christmas tree is still there, and the weird thing is my mom puts the christmas sign on the tree, even though christmas is over. and when i ask her out, she said, "let christmas be everyday in this house." well, if she wants that way then why not. but we'll see, it'll came true or not.

even if, there's no tree, or christmas songs, i can feel it in my heart and i can make it feel everyday is christmas. and i hope it stays out throughout the year until christmas comes again.

thank you Jesus, You were born to this pathetic world to bring us peace. :)

"ams"

it's finally christmas.

so, it's finally here. my favorite time of the year. christmas time. finally here! i am sooo excited, even if i hear the word 'christmas' i feel so happy. :) and now, it's here. i already went to the church, for a christmas eve church. and then, i went to my gramps' house and we had our traditional christmas family dinner. but this year menu is also traditional. not like the usual foods like last year, we had turkeys, stuffed, mashed potatoes, beers, etc. but tonight, we didn't have any of that. it's all about traditional food. and i'm stuffed!

christmas, for me is a very special day. first, it's because it is the day Jesus was born to the earth to become our Saviour. but then, the other thing is, it's the anniversary for me and my bf. because we set the relationship straight on this day. :)

i hope we all have the best christmas day ever, and i wanna wish you, again, to have a wonderful christmas. and God bless you!!!

*i'll be going on the 25th to 27th, so, maybe i'll not update my blog. but i'll be missing you!*

"ams"

HAPPY CHRISTMAS 2009!!!

i'm here to say,

HAVE A WONDERFUL TIME OF CHRISTMAS DAY TO ALL OF YOU

MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY

HAPPY CHRISTMAS

2009

may the Christmas joy fulfill your life, hopes and dreams

Where is He Who has been born King of the Jews? For we have seen His star in the east at its rising and have come to worship Him.

(Matthew 2:2)

"ams"

movie review - AVATAR (in 3D).

it's been a long time since i last saw a movie. and i even forgot what's the last movie i watched. oh well. so, yesterday, i watched this movie called 'AVATAR'. the one that keeps everyone talking about, and people said it was worth to watch. then, i'll write what i want to say about this movie.

title: AVATAR.

directed by: james cameron.

casts: sam worthington as jake sully, zoe saldana as neytiri, sigourney weaver as grace austine, etc.

review:

(not a spoiler)

the movie took place in pandora, the land of the origins creature called Na'vi. those from earth finds it odds to live with them. because they have their own language and living life things. jake (played by worthington), after he lost his brother in war, decided to take his late brother mission. even though he's paraplegic, (simply, can't walk because his leg lost its function). the purpose he goes to this mission is to get more information about the Na'vi's woodland. for that mission, jake got a new identity called 'avatar' to able him to communicate with the Na'vi. and the story change after he met neytiri (played by saldana). wanna see the rest for yourself? go watch it!

well, for me, the greatest thing about this movie is the 3D effects. for the story, not so much. it's three hours straight and i'm bored to hell. the story lost and found its climax, so it's so hard for me to enjoy the rest of the movie. although, it's interesting, how the avatar's hair can connect to almost everything and controls them. i wish i can do that. haha. but, overall, it's james cameron's movie anyway. it turned out very great. and i'd like to give 9,5 for the graphic, and 7 for the story. i can't say 10, because nothing's prefect in this life right? :)

"ams"

incurable disease.

what a day for today. it seems like, nine hours of my life today gone too fast. finally, i got my haircut today. it's still long, only shorter. it's nice though if you can see it. and this hair suits me well enough for the rest of the year. ha! can you imagine, it's only 10 days left until the end of 2009. and then there'll be 2010, my age will be 21 at that time. wow, we're getting older and i'm still the same old me trying to living my life completely surrender to my God. :)

so, about life, about my title, "INCURABLE DISEASE". believe me or not, i have that. incurable disease. surprise? yeah, what about me? it was discovered may 2009, my doctor told me that my disease is incurable. what i felt back there was, shocked at first. my tears want to fell down, sadness surrounds me. i feel like i'm dying. i'm too young to die. but, my doctor told me that this disease of mine, isn't deadly like the others. well, that's a relieve. but, then again, i can't go back to normal again. i'll depends on this medication forever, for the entire life of mine. because nobody has found the cure for this disease. i can't tell you what this disease called, because i'm too embarrassed to say it.

i have to go back to the doctor every single month, and my doctor will gave me a brand new drug, every month to make this disease gone. but, it will reappear if i'm too stressed out, if i'm too tired and lack of sleep.

it's sad really, i have to depends on this stupid drugs. all i can do is pray, that someday, someone will find the cure for this disease of mine and i'll be back to normal, healthy, and live up my life more brighter. :)

please pray for me guys! and also, you have to thank God, if you have a curable disease. because you're lucky. :)

"ams"

the distance - oliver james.

The sky has lost its color

The sun has turned to gray

At least that's how it feels to me

Whenever you're away

I crawl up in the corner

To watch the minutes pass

Each one brings me closer to

The time you're coming back

I can't take the distance

I can't take the miles

I can't take the time until I next see you smile

I can't take the distance

And I'm not ashamed

That with every breath I take I'm calling your name

I can't take the distance

I still believe my feelings

But sometimes I feel too much

I make believe you're close to me

But it ain't close enough

Not nearly close enough

I can't take the distance

I can't take the miles

I can't take the time until I next see you smile

I can't take the distance

And I'm not ashamed

That with every breath I take I'm calling your name

I can't take the distance

I'd breathe fire and I'd be free

To be by your side, I'd do anything

I can't take the distance

I will go the distance

I will go the miles

That's how much you mean to me

I can't take the distance

I can't take the miles

I can't take the time until I next see you smile

I can't take the distance

And I'm not ashamed

That with every breath I take I'm calling your name

I can't take the distance

for the song click here.

christmas is coming real soon! :)

so, it's the 20th of december already, which means, it's only five more days to christmas and also, my anniversary with my bf. :) well, it's sure comes pretty fast huh? i never wish for anything better this christmas, because i know i'll get what i want on christmas. but the most excited thing on this year christmas' is i get to spend my christmas with my family and also my bf outside jakarta. isn't that wonderful? for me, i don't need any christmas present, celebrating christmas with your family and your love one are the most wonderful gift ever on christmas day. and i can't wait to do so. :D

oh, i'm on my holiday now on. all i get to do is sleeping, more sleeping and more more and more sleeping. because i need that, i really am. all my 'time' sacrifice are all payed off by it. and i get to sleep like more than eight hours a day from now on. isn't that magical? haha. :p

tomorrow i'll cut my hair off, i'm getting tired with this long hair, not that i want to cut my hair short, but i'm gonna cut them off for like five or seven centimeters. it's already way too long and i'm sick of it. also the weather is hot in here, so, i'm gonna shorten my hair up tomorrow.

another christmas spirit, i'm gonna cross christmas presents with my bf. and i already bought what he likes and i hope he use it for the rest of his life. i can't write what's inside his presents because he'll read my blog. that's not gonna be a surprise right? ughhh!!! that's why i can't wait any longer for christmas day to come! i am soooooooo thrilled!!!

now that i realized, i haven't seen a movie recently. i even forgot the last movie i saw. hmmm. i wanna catch up. maybe next week i'll go to the movie with my bf. :)

have a great holiday mates!!! :)

"ams"

it's only a matter of time.

tick...tock...tick...tock...

it's only a week ahead and then it's all about holiday, christmas, sleeping, new year, more sleeping time, and again, SLEEPING!!! i'm tired and messed up. i need a goddamn 24 hours of resting and do nothing except for one thing, that is sleeping.

this week is awful! i'm very VERY extremely TIRED!!! full of responsibility, assignment, more assignment, more and more jobs to do, anything that involved with theatre thing. i know i always babbling about theatre stuff, but please, even i am very tired of this frikin' theatre thingy.

(-.-'')

i can't wait to get some sleep, i can't wait to get some lazy time alone in my room doing nothing, just sleeping, reading, maybe cleans up my room because it's extremely messy in here. keep my health on the right spot, rest my head off especially my brain. because i don't think it's functioning clearly. even though i thought about something, my mind just fell right through. and all i have in my mind is all about theatre. again and again. that's why i need a 24 hours of rest and a holiday. a very LONG HOLIDAY.

oh my God, i can feel the ocean is calling my name, and the mountain too. i think it's already time to take a rest. for a while...

"ams"

i've had enough and i need a holiday right away!

it's bad. i'm totally bored with this situation! i don't know why but i hate this! again and again, always, everyday, it's like i'm running in circle in order to get through until february 2010. please, i need a major break from all of my activity. and yes, i know this is my responsibility, but every single person has their limit, and for me, i already reach mine. :(

please, holiday come early.

because i know next year it's gonna be worst than this year, everything will be very extremely hectic and chaos everywhere. but i know, someday, it'll get through. i hope it does.

no need to write anything again i guess, you all know what am i going through recently right? huff. i'm tired.

"ams"

i'm tired enough to get mad.

i can't stand to live with someone that is have a high level of pessimistic. it's like, you have a life but you're controlled by someone else? and you always giving up so easily. my God, you're pathetic. it's also useless, trying to get this pessimistic people up again. if we gave them support, at first they will think about it. but after they think about it, there must be something that can make them think that they can't never do it. come on, what are you?

i have my own believe that people can change if they are willing to change. and i'm pretty sure lots of people knows that. we can do it, with or without support, but the question is do you want to change?

don't answer that if you're not sure about your answer. i don't need your answer anyway, i need your prove. i know it's not that fast, but why don't you have a try? try to change isn't so bad. i've done it. and believe me, it works! well, it's because i am willing to do it.

so, the key to success is will! remember, if there's a will, there's a way. :)

again, i can't stand anyone with a big level of pessimistic. sorry.

"ams"

december, the most magical month.

gosh! it's december already folks! i cannot believe it. what can i say, this year is way too fast than i thought. maybe because i'm too focus on my theatre thingy and stuffs. but hey, it's the second of december already. and 2009 it's only 28 days left. i can't believe it! wow! :)

and if december already here, then christmas is near too!!! yippieee!!! i am soooo happy!!! can you tell? hihi. so, christmas. i already have a plan already. and it's a plan with my big family and of course my lovely bf. at first, my mom never told me about going out of town on christmas, because every year, on christmas eve, my big family always gathers in my cousin's house. and we celebrate until late. drinks, turkey, great musics, alcohol, etc. all the great stuffs to celebrate. but then, yesterday, my mom told me that we'll be going out of town on 25th of christmas. and yes, that was shocking at first. because my bf and i already make a plan. but then, the plan had changed. i'll be going with my family and so does my bf. :)

so, i'll be celebrating christmas with my family and my bf. yaaayyy!!! oh my gosh, i am so happy. december is the happiest month of all this year i guess. :D

oh! oh! oh! my daddy bought me another christmas tree!!! yeay!!! i have two christmas trees this year. what can i say? december is truly a magic month. love it! :)

have a great day on december everyone!!!

"ams"

yeah, it's you i'm talking about.

anger.

this is not supposed to be my job, because this is not my part of the theatre.

screw you guys!

eleven, soccer team.

'cause the spaces between my fingers

are right where yours fit perfectly'

HAPPY ELEVENTH MONTHS TO US MY DEAREST

IRVAN SETIAWAN!!!

i hope everything happens between us is a gift from God, that we have to face it, no matter what the situations are, the consequences are and the troubles are in our life, let that thing be something that can make us stronger as a couple.

one more month to our anniversary, i hope we can make it through and again, build to last.

'it's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life.'

"ams"

quick updates.

it's such a long time since i didn't made an update. firstly because, blogger was banned in indonesia for, well i don't know exactly how long, but every time i opened it, it can't. i don't know why at first, but this morning i heard the news that blogger was banned because of someone in indonesia made a bad blog. i don't know what it is all about to be exact but, the stupid thing is, this 'someone' that made a bad blog used wordpress not blogger. and why was blogger the one that being banned? how stupid it was. i don't know anything about wordpress because i'm not using it. so, yeah, it was a stupid thing.

so, on the 23rd of november, err...it's monday if i'm not mistaken, i went to jakarta's so called 'china town' located in glodok. it is quite a place, since i've never been there. i went because i had to do my job as the property crew. to search for some props for the theatre. and yes, i'm still on my theatre thingy. i hope you're not bored with that. because i'm not. i get used to it though. :p

the place is quite unique for me, it's a great place to take a picture, but unfortunately i'm not taking any. but i'll go back there i guess. i'm not done with my props yet. still, there's too many things that i need to buy from that place. and the foods seems nice too. and delicious. ugh! i wanna go back and have something to eat there. :)

oh! my mid exam test results are coming out. but it turned out to be not so great. i'm afraid my grades will be dropping down. i'm not gonna let that happen. i'll do my best to have a good score. i promise myself to have at least, one A. or two. and i hope i can do it. well, i must do it anyway. good luck for me. :)

for the last updates, CHRISTMAS IS NEAR!!! and i'm very excited about it. i've done my first christmas' shopping spree. and i'm willing to go to the next. my mom wanna buy a new christmas tree, but she still confused what color should she chose. i'm thinking a little snowy blue will be nice right? or whatever the color is, as long as i have a brand new christmas tree. i can feel the christmas spirit in me. also, on the first christmas' shopping spree, i bought david archuleta's christmas album. and it's so great!!! and it is my current playlist on my car. :)

only a month left before christmas, and i can't wait to celebrate it!!! :)

"ams"

tips to prevent the 'monday blues'.

so, here's what i've got from this month's readers digest. tips on how to prevent your monday blues. you know, everyone seems to hate waking up early in the monday morning. well, i do too. sleeping is the only thing i love the most at a time like this. plus, when it's raining in the morning, oh God, that is for me is what i called PERFECT LIFE! it's hard enough to open up your eyes, but it's even hard for me to face the truth that i'll go to a class on monday morning. it sucks, i know.

but i read this great article from readers digest and maybe i will try it on monday. or even tomorrow morning. oh well, we'll see it then.

BEAT THE SLEEPING HABBIT.

• avoid the weekend 'recovery' - we should sleep eight hour a day, no more and no less. it's enough for you to sleep in one day. if you sleep like more than eight hours, the water on your body will not stand it. and we'll get dizzy. trust me, it is dizzy.
• set a sleep-in limit - if you can, go to bed earlier on saturday night. automatically, on sunday you'll sleep early too.
• get out into the sun - even if you're late to bed, get up within an hour past your weekday rise time. the morning sun will resets your body clock and your sleeping time will be back on track.

so, there it is, i hope it work. i never tried it though, but i'm sure i will, tomorrow. i guess. :)

well, good luck on trying that one!

"ams"

last flight out - plus one.

I'm so scared that you will see

All the weakness inside of me

I'm so scared of letting go

That the pain I've hid will show

I know you want to hear me speak

But I'm afraid that if I start to

I'll never stop

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

I'm afraid that

You will leave

As my secrets

Have been revealed

In my dreams

You'll always stay

Every breathing moment from now

I know you want to hear me speak

But I'm afraid that if I start to

I'll never stop

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

I cannot hold back

The truth no more

I let you wait too long

Although it's hard and scares me so

A life without you scares me more

I want you to know

You belong in my life

I love the hope

I see in your eyes

For you I would fly

At least I would try

For you I'll take

The last flight out

i want to leave it blank, because i don't know what to say.

so, theatre, again. somehow, i was thinking that i'll change this blog into something that dedicates to my life in the theatre. because from what i've seen, mostly, most of my blog posts are all about theatre, theatre and moreee theatre. i'm pretty sure all of you who read it getting pretty bored huh? well, yeah, me too. after all, i'm the one whose doing it right?

updates on today's practice. everyone did a very great job today, and i'm sure we'll give the best from what we have practicing. we have a great coach and mentor too, and also the casts are great! and they have their own different character to show everybody. i'm so proud of my class. and i'll pray for my class, every single day. :)

tomorrow, i'll be heading to this TV station to gain some money for my theatre. i hope it went well, all we have to do is sit and wait until the show is over. and i hope it's only for an hour.

i'm tired, adn very sleepy. i should get a rest now.

"ams"

a thoughts on a rainy day. part 2.

as you can see in the title, yeah, it's raining. it's cold and breezy, it's a great weather though, i always love rainy day like this. but not too big either. what i feel is, rain is romantic, i said that i guess in my part 1 blog about rain.

you know, the part i love the most is when it's a rainy day, you made yourself a cup of hot chocolate with marshmallow on top of that, and you sit on your rocking chair and wear one of your comfy blanket on and then you're starting to smell the rain and the ground at the same time. i don't know what it called, but i always love the smell of the rain. :) it makes me feel warm and calm.

there's one time, when i'm in swiss for a vacation with my family. and as you know, it's cold and it's raining. i stayed at almost on one of the highest house in swiss and it's cold as hell! but the good thing is, my mom made me a hot choco with marshmallow on. and that was why i love the rainy day. romantic isn't it, if i could then i would wanna do it again. with my bf maybe? hihi.

it's getting bigger outside, but i love it anyway. :)

"ams"

it's starting. i guess.

my mid term gonna end tomorrow, and that doesn't mean that i'll be free like a bird or something. hell no! what i have to face next is THEATRE!!! never get tired of saying that word. i have guard my health, i don't wanna get sick or anything. and i'll be coming home pretty late from now on, so...

"my dear God, i pray to You to protect me and all of my friends in this theatre. we hope for the very best and we will give the very best to all of the audience and most of all to You. i hope we'll pass this theatre with something to learn, something that made us better day by day, and most of all, it'll make us much closer than before. because from all i know is, this is the last thing we'll do together as one class. so, keep your health up and good luck for all of us. in the name of Jesus Christ i said my prayer, for me and of course, for my dearest friends. AMEN!!!"

i never prayed on my blog before, and i just did. :)

so, GOOD LUCK THEATRE GROUP 1!!! JOURNEY TO THE WEST!!!

"ams"

are back stabbers the same with hypocrites person?

for me, nah! they're not the same. from what i know is one person, take me for example, could have those two types of person. i could be like that. but that will be very rude. okay, here's the thing. i'm not that rude as a human being. i don't want to hurt anyone, any person anybody. i'm trying to make everyone around me feel happy. but like they said, 'NICE PEOPLE OFTEN GETS HURT' and i'm not saying that i'm the nicest person in this world, but a lot of people keep telling me that, i'm a nice person. even my bf said that for a human being, i'm too soft to be rude. well, that's who i am. i can't be mad to other people if they made a mistake, or IF they made a mistake i'll forget it. come on, nobody's perfect. and you know it's true.

so, about back stabbers. the person who stabs you from your back. like talking about you, mean things about you, negative things about you, well, i've been in that very situation. it was in my high school year, grade 12, when my school made a school sport event. and i'm the head of the food and beverage team. i stay all day in the f&b station for a week, i'm doing my job the right way, and i didn't leave my station at all (except for going to the toilet). but what did my friend said? one of my friend said that i'm not doing my job properly. she said i leave the station all the time and i didn't take care of the f&b seriously. i was like, confused at first, but after i know who's behind this nonsense situation, i realized, what's the used of doing like that? back stabber thing. what i had in my mind that day is just forget it, she don't know what she's doing to me. for me, i'm doing my own way. i did what i did best, and that's that. and the result? well, the next day, this girl that back stabbed me went home earlier, crying, because of what? well, you don't want to know. :p

and then we have, hypocrite. well, it's the same. but i have to admit it, we all human being are hypocrite. right? who wouldn't? again, we aren't perfect in every way, we all made mistakes. hypocrite is cruel. to make it simple, hypocrite is something you do when you're avoiding something but you really aren't avoiding that thing. get it? it's like for example, you like someone, but when your friend told you that he/she like him/her too and your friend ask you if you like him/her and you said NO. then you're a hypocrite. i'm sure you get it by now. if not, well, search it in the internet. :p

i usually find things like back stabber and hypocrite in friendship. you know, when you like someone and that person is your friend's bf/gf and you didn't care about that and you keep doing it, you keep pushing yourself to be with him/her. OR! even when you like your best friend's ex. ugh God! GET A LIFE MAN! it's weird you know, hear things like that. but what can we do? there's no such thing is a best friend that acts like a true best friend anyway. and i have to tell you this, DON'T YOU EVER TRUST A PERSON 100%. because when he/she lied to you, it hurts so much. and i know it, very much.

what you can do now is just realized, how imperfect we are in this world. and no one will be as perfect as our God.

"ams"

what i think of my life recently.

it's been pretty tiring lately. campus stuffs, mid term exams, assignments, more and more assignments. it seems like it will never gonna end soon. and i'm getting tired. but hell! i mustn't complaining, this is what i chose and i must do it. so, i'm spinning my head round and round and found out things that for me, i just realize it in my life. and it's all about time.

yesterday, i went to my campus to do my assignment and of course, theatre. when we went home, (there's me, my bf and my friend come along) we talked about how much time did we spend outside and inside our house. well, that surely made me think. and that's right, i've never been thinking that much. and i just realized that i spend my 24 hours mostly outside my house. so, to make it simple, here's the details:

• i woke up at six o'clock every monday to friday. (mostly)
• my class ends up at twelve o'clock every monday to friday.
• if i don't have anything to do, i went to the mall to get some lunch or watch a movie or do stuffs like that.
• if i'm very sleepy, i'll go straight back home.
• recently, i have my theatre thing, and it makes my time outside more and more longer than before.
• if i have my theatre thing, i'll be home late. very late i presume.
• the only day that i could lay my head on the pillow for a long time is on sunday

so, pathetic ey? yeah, i know. if i count all the hours and minutes, it will be like this. from monday to saturday i'll be at home for approx. 10 hours maximum. 8 hours minimum. and outside home, it will be 14 hours a day maximum, or could be minimum. :(

you know what i'm thinking? it's like, i have a home, home sweet home, but it's not the place that i'll stay for a long time. one thing that i surely do at home is sleeping.

i have a house, but i don't feel like i'm using it properly. (well, not my house, my parents' house. but i stay there for a very long time now.)

"ams"